001. so this is my 2nd journal, since my last one got messed up and the colors got all funky. i lost my ring today. IM SO DUMB! idk how, when or where i lost it. but its veryyyy upsetting. i better find it! i have to. i wondered if matt took it to get it resized, but i definitely would have noticed..i think. ah. he said he's not mad, and that it's just a ring. he also said hes just said because i'm sad, and he doesnt want me sad. I BETTER FIND THIS RING!! today was my bob's party, it was okay. this one girl from my fashion class last year came with her dad, who knew bob through work. she's a lot cooler than i thought, so is her brother who was in my lunch last year. theyre all extremely outgoing and funny. pretty cool people. i wish matt could have stayed longer, but noo his dad had to come up THIS weekend. grrr. i can't believe i found such an amazing boy. he's everything to me. my psych teacher talked about how in teenage relationships, your bf/gf cannot complete you. they must compliment you instead, you're just setting yourself up to get hurt if they complete you. you need to be able to be happy on your own. thats kinda hard. matt's my everything, but i'd say he does compliment me rather than complete me. i've always been me, but he makes me a better person. =] i just downloaded a bunch of lifehouse songs, theyre pretty amazing. their lyrics are so meaningful and deep, better than a lot of crap going through the circuits now-a-days. so in every entry, i'm going to recommend a song for whoever reads this to check out. iight? =] recommendation: from where you are by lifehouse. I feel the beating of your heart, I see the shadows of your face. Just know that wherever you are, yeah I miss you, and I wish you were here. I miss the years that were erased. I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face. I miss all the little things, I never thought that they'd mean everything to me. Yeah I miss you, and I wish you were here.