Hey Lover, Don't Let 'em Love You They'll Lay On Top Of You To Stay Above You. Cause Suffered And Crushed Is Just Not Enough They Wanna Hold You Down Until They Lock You Up but i don't want to go home yet, so i'm gonna talk to my cigarette, and that television set, it doesn't matter what brand or station, anything to take away from the current situation ain't nothin' changed but the day we run from but nobody knows that better than you huh? Enough to hold you to the brightest of lights, to place you dangerously close to that sun, enough to acknowledge the flaws you can't ignore and recognize the cause of what's done is done, more than enough to put my name behind my ideals, and neglect my logic twice daily. enough to keep me looking for my lucy in the sky with gems, when I remember how you used to call me baby, enough to look in my mirror with detest for every tear you shed regardless of why you wept, enough to curse any man who can't appreciate the depth of the ocean I swam till I ran out of breath. If only I had known what you already knew I�m always coming back home to you It's like that, thank you very much, fuck you very much every action has a point, five points make a fist You close em', you swing em', it's hurts when it hits And the truth can be a bitch, but if the boot fits

Beruit- nantes P.O.S.--- everything Cage--- ehhh Jonathan Richman- power in eyes...? ghostface rakim knux eazy-e agent orange bad brains iggy and the stooges propagandhi

lets get blown out of our own minds watch the transpiring events twist and spin brains gushing from it's stem who am i where did i go don't really care all in false pretenses ofcourse i miss my family dinner with my forever main course green babies running marathons in my head bring me more, give me more my mind is a brick heavy and bored

really fuck it i'm ill in the sense of being completely apalled by everything so fuck it i'm going to write what happens decide what becomes just fucking do it this it this everything stop wasting my time thinking of how to manipulate things and just do it.

reversed roles i don't like being on the other side of the grass but if i wasn't.. would i feel the same?

what do you call a feeling that feels like love ive only met you once lust no, i don't feel myself drawn to you physically but i long for this mental connection we've shared engaged interested intoxicated by your effortless words you're a caoooteee, and i love drawing you mystical creatures:B

this summer is spastic unconsidered and overwhelming thinking is not required and the cherry on the top is just being here or frankly just being

I'm listening to passion pit... They've kindof completely changed my view on a person Or maybe it's the fact I'm completely undecisive and my beliefs can genuinely change within moments unrecognizable to myself I thought, only less than 24 hours ago, that you were completely beneath me. But you twinkle. You are blissful and I can truly say I admire that. You've expirenced a loss that would ruin me, yet you recover to high spirits and I see that you're easily enthralled and I'm glad. you deserve it and so much more. ~~~~~ NOW YOU ON THE OTHERHAND... Completely pathetic. Downright embarassing. I've never felt such a disconnect from a human before. You try to swoon these people in false pretenses that are evident beyond recognition. It's filthy and I'm embarassed for myself for trying to hold on to something. History is the only thing binding us together. Be happy with yourself, love yourself Stop pushing away the people that truly have your best interest in mind for these oh so mighty ones that would easily turn you off for their own benefit. In truth you are much like the majority of people fake and i'm not sure why now it's truly beginning to disguist me? ~~~ But the sad thing is, is that i love you so much. And I'm appalled at myself. Full of regret on the past situations. That night we pushed all the bullshit behind us and just flowed we didn't think much but we did have adventurous, free conversations on everything. you opened yourself up, completely vulnerable a state that i have never seen in you since the first time we've met over 5 years ago. it was beautiful, looking back at it, but at the time i felt a huge disconnect.. with you and more so with myself I felt alienated from you and that scared me that upset me that dissapointed me... after all of this time, a feeling that i've desperately wanted to expierence with a person, is lost. i found you quite slow and you bored me and secretly i hated myself for thinking this way and the fact of the matter is that you share all of the similar wants and desires as i.. yet somehow i was completely turned off by you. i'll never know but i will stop searching for the answers. because i don't live in the past, and i'm already tired of it.

it is a blur these last couple weeks have mistakenly sprung past yesterday is lost in a pool of all the other yesterdays these weeks can be defined as good but i want more always longing for something else but is it too much to ask, anyone..someone?, for greatness for overwhelming, in the good sense, fast plastered memories of beautiful people and places or even just beautiful meticulous moments with people that mark me permanently times that i won't want to forget that i can carelessly laugh back at nights where summer never leaves maybe it's too much to long for simple happiness pureness delicateness i don't want to be satisfied i want to be completed. old friends always change i want to remain in your life but i feel above you in all senses this relationship that i desperately wanted has re-identified itself as pointless i have no will to even communicate with you via any portal available you have become another nobody to me and the seconds we share account to nothing they are meaningless and very forgettable and noone is to blame. ________________ ~my ear hurts~

new people are like new books sometimes i like what i read and sometimes i can't bring myself to open its cover but you stand apart i want to read backwards, forwards, upside down in the most unconventional ways i want to become your story and read about myself within you i want to memorize you by every line you are now part of my tale soft touch, gentle voice but unmistakenly strong ...i'm still reading