I'm hungry as fuck right now. There's no good food around in the house. We have macaroni and cheese, some fish, and uhm that's it. Wtf dude! I hate seconds, so I'm not having spaghetti again. I might as well make buttered toast. I would like to go to another show. But I'll have wait until March 27th. SEE YOU NEXT TUESDAY !

holy shit dude okay I'm on my phone right now and I'm laying in bed and I'm tired so I'm gonna make this short dude... tonight was fucking brutal! remember this band; THIS SON OF YOURS one day they will be big mother fuckers. well my friend ended up not being able to go...so no sleepover. but my other friend went and we chilled. and it was epic but d00d Catherine hella sucked. their new stuff and new singer totally caused my loss of respect for that band. I want old Catherine! UHM YEAH there's this other band called something like Five Strangers Looking For An Exit or something was really good live! I chilled with Bean most of the time. we hugged a lot and he put his arm around me. rofl. he's not my type. nah nah. he's chill though. so yeah I'm done with this and ill continue the countdown tomorrow cause I'm lazy. night! ps, front row babies. epicepicepic

WINDS OF PLAGUE MOTHER FUCKER!!!!!!!!!!! one body too many, my favorite song by them. Uhm I have a headache right now, gross. I need to go pee but I'm lazy. I need to study for my tests tomorrow [biology + math] But I don't study. Okay so I just got a pill, so hopefully my headache will go away! Well, I finally asked my mom about the show tomorrow and the answer was yes!! SWEET. So it's gonna be like this School, Show, Sleepover YE I kinda want to go to the mall but idkkkkk idkkkkk And uhm let me continue my countdown thing. Warped Tour date #1: 107 days left Warped Tour date #2: 162 days left Err....seems like so many days. But I think I can do it! I'm gonna put on some winds of plague now. I wish I didn't have any school tomorrow. BTW

SO WOWOWOWOWOW. Okay okay I think I should not get my hopes up and calm down. i'm pretty sure I'm not going to go see TDWP on the 16th but shit dude, my friend lets call him bear! Well Bear told me his friend told him he knows the guys from TDWP. I don't know for sure if he does, but if he really does Bear said that his friend could get me Daniel William's drum sticks :D HOLY SHIT DUDE I'd seriously cry! And if I go, there's a chance I could get on their bus if Bear's friend does really know the guys from TDWP. WOW. JUST WOWWWWWW :) You don't know, how happy I would be. Oh btw, I forgot to continue the countdown today. Warped Tour date #1: 108 days left Warped Tour date #2: 163 days left I know that's hella days but it'll be worth waiting for.

..In a harsh reality. !! WELL WELL Guess what. My shirts finally came. Both of them. They fit, I'm happy. I hope they shrink in the wash because it's a bit baggy and I'd like it to be tighter. Well today wasn't such a great day, but it wasn't terrible. I found out that the girl I usually hang out with at school might start independent study, due to some thing that had happened. Kids are so harsh these days. I think I know what happened, she hasn't told me yet because she wants to tell me in person. Since she didn't come to school today and all. It's pretty damn sad. It's also a damn shame how people act these days. I can't stand it. It's really too much. Some people can't handle it. So today in art class, my teacher decided to tell us about how Gays get extremely offended when we say "that's gay!" or when we gay bash them. It's like NO SHIT LADY IT DOESN'T MAKE THEM HAPPY THATS FOR SURE. What the fuck? She wasted the whole class period which was about 2 hours today talking about how hurtful it is to bash gay people! And reading us depressing paragraphs that gay people who have gone through school with people calling them names, wrote. And it was depressing. But goddamn haha! Does she not know that she's not gonna change what the kids do by bringing this topic up? Especially in art class? WTF. Freak. I mean seriously we don't talk about how racism is so bad. RACISM IS WAY WORSE THAN FUCKING GAY BASHING. Nigger is more offensive then faggot. What the fuck. ^^ RANT ^^ Well I'm done. Good day! You're too much for me

Another entry for today, even though it says its the next day, it's still only 10PM in California. Well I suggest fans of PlayRadioPlay! To go listen to The A-B Theory My favorite song from him is called "Fatal Flaw Attractions." I actually haven't asked my mom for permission to go to the show on Friday, but I'm just hoping she'll say yes. Hoping my plans won't screw me over. So for some reason, I watched all of the Disney Channel movie, Minutemen I admit I thought it was a pretty cute movie. Probably one of my favorite original movies that they have. I'm not ashamed to say so, and I like that about myself. Okay so if you don't like hearing about my LIFE please get the fuck off this page because no one is asking you to stay. Complaining about how stupid it is that I'm sharing my life to a bunch of strangers won't stop me. You using your hands to get off this page will. So continue with whatever you're doing and I advise you to never read another one of my journals again. Good? :) Yeah, I feel like I'm not good enough for you. Is that it? Do I have to fix myself up for you in order for you to accept me? Look at me. Sometimes I wish I had someone to stay up late with. Most of the time I love being alone. Being able to get out of all the commotion. No more complaining. But night time is the one time that I really would like company. A boy. That's what I want. A boy that I can sleep with. Sleep with meaning just SLEEPING. Talking to, then falling asleep. Not what you usually think about. That is my definition of a great relationship. Love does not mean sex. Please get that through your mind. That reminds me...I know this girl through a friend whose boyfriend broke up with her because she wouldn't have sex with him. It's really sad because I saw how much she liked them. She thought he was perfect. But I don't know. Should I show some pity for her? Even though I know shes a cutthroat bitch? I don't know how to feel. It's like I should feel bad for her, but then I shouldn't because she probably wouldn't feel bad for me. She told her best friend, who is a good friend of mine, that she didn't like me. Not hated me, but just didn't like me. I don't like her either, honestly. But I care for people. Well care isn't such a good word...I can't think of the word right now. I want a good boy. Have a been too shallow? I feel like I have. All I've been looking for is beauty. I don't even really care about their personality now that I think about it. I should, but I don't. I mean I do I guess..But my first priority is that they're good looking. What I notice first in boys is their face basically. I don't notice anything else other than their overall look. I keep telling myself that, one day he will come. I will find that guy that I want. I WILL. But I've been starting to think. When will my time come? Everyone has a boyfriend/girlfriend, they seem happy. Am I the only one that hasn't had one this year? It's pretty lame. Maybe I will find him. Maybe I won't. I guess we'll find out. Eventually. Seriously, goodnight. I'm not sure if this is love Too much free time; too many drugs And parking cars in alley ways To kill all the pain Wake up calls at 4 a.m. To find a fix, maybe a friend Just somebody to listen when You don't quite make sense Waiting rooms, hospital beds The smell of this place gets in your head And reeks of a life much shorter than You once imagined I watch their eyes cut through my bones I pray to God to save my soul Watch my regrets rise up like ghosts I buried them so long ago

And we all know that's what it is to you, goodnight :] So I text a lot, and my friend made fun of me ahahaha. We'll just call him BEAN from now on cause he wears a beanie EVERYDAY, but bean just sounds better? He's really adorable. He's short and not usually my type, but I wouldn't mind ? Hahaha lunch was funny. My friend ...I'll call her Vans, because she wears the same pairs of vans everyday. and they have holes in them haha. And so yeah she knows how I find Stunner to be adorable and she said something like this: "It would be funny if you guys ever started dating and he kisses you and tell you how he loves you and you say 'I love you too, Kyle.' And he'll say "UHM WHO IS KYLE?" and you'll ramble on and on about how you used to stalk him :]" ROFLLL! Yeah I call him Kyle. I know his real name now but I still can't stop calling him kyle. But I think that would be pretty funny. I thought we were going to run in p.e today. For the fitness test thing, but we actually didn't! We ended up weighing ourselves and measuring our height. It said I'm 5'2! BUT I KNOW I'M 5'4!! Since my mom is 5'2, and I'm way taller than her! Anyways whatever I'm hella over it ;) And I weigh about 100lbs. I want to lose 10lbs. That's my goal. But I'm probably not gonna reach it. I forgot to take a day off my Warped Tour countdown thing so I'll just pick up from the other day. Warped Tour date #1: 109 days left Warped Tour date #2: 164 days left I think...because the time on songmeanings fuck up all my dates since I go by California time, and whenever I try to change the time zones, it doesn't work! forget it. I'm pretty sure that's right though. Don't you just hate it when a conversation goes like this: You: HEY WHATS UP :) Friend: I feel like shit. I don't feel like talking about it You: oh okay...sorry? Friend: it happened during p.e but whatever YOU: typing your response still Friend: I'm going bye. signs off in a nano second I understand if you don't want to talk about it, but then don't tell me anything! Cause then I'll be curious and wanting to know what happened you dumb bitch :( Currently listening to: KILL EVERYONE - XGUMBYX LMFAOOOO. I love that song, and Mike Hranica. That guy is seriously talented. "JUST KIDDING, I KILLED MY WIFE BECAUSE SHE COULDN'T COOK" "I KICKED THE CAT OUT THE WINDOW" haahahha! Their stuff actually sounds good for being a joke band! Uhm lets see...did anything else interesting happen today? Oh uhm my babycakes shirts still haven't arrived :\. I'm getting really pissy! I CAN'T BELIEVE IM WAITING 2 FUCKING MONTHS FOR TO SHIRTS TO COME OVER THE MAIL! GOD FUCK YOU AND I HOPE YOUR CLOTHING COMPANY GOES DOWN THE FUCKING TOILET. Goodbye! I just want back in your head

Lmfao, i couldn't think of anything else to put as the title today. I'm not all here right now. I'm pretty tired. I only got like 7 hours of sleep. That's not enough! haha Well today was really interesting But whenever I say that it just usually means it was boring? Uhm yeah basically so. I have to fill out a reading calender later. And then I think I have to attempt some biology! That TICK TICK TICK global warming commercial with the little kids is really annoying. It's just like SHUT THE FUCK UP ALREADY. I get it! Can't wait until Friday. Going to the show, friend is sleeping over. YEYE. I might as well go to the mall before the show since I need new tapers. I think I'm gonna stop now, since I have nothing else to say :] Okay day. I'm scared

I got bored, and I refreshed this window, and I read Fallen Leaves' journal, and I got the idea of showing you all my last.fm shit! So here we go. table.lfmWidgetecf6389d01e41ddc8602aafa85dd058d td {margin:0 !important;padding:0 !important;border:0 !important;}table.lfmWidgetecf6389d01e41ddc8602aafa85dd058d tr.lfmHead a:hover {background:url(http://cdn.last.fm/widgets/images/en/header/chart/weeklyartists_regular_black.png) no-repeat 0 0 !important;}table.lfmWidgetecf6389d01e41ddc8602aafa85dd058d tr.lfmEmbed object {float:left;}table.lfmWidgetecf6389d01e41ddc8602aafa85dd058d tr.lfmFoot td.lfmConfig a:hover {background:url(http://cdn.last.fm/widgets/images/en/footer/black.png) no-repeat 0px 0 !important;;}table.lfmWidgetecf6389d01e41ddc8602aafa85dd058d tr.lfmFoot td.lfmView a:hover {background:url(http://cdn.last.fm/widgets/images/en/footer/black.png) no-repeat -85px 0 !important;}table.lfmWidgetecf6389d01e41ddc8602aafa85dd058d tr.lfmFoot td.lfmPopup a:hover {background:url(http://cdn.last.fm/widgets/images/en/footer/black.png) no-repeat -159px 0 !important;} That's from last week. But it'll do. Since I didn't really listen to much music this week.

Well... Today's a Sunday and that pretty much guarantees it to be a horrible day. I'm pretty bored and I haven't done anything all this weekend. I feel like listening to really mellow stuff, with nice electro beats. I don't know why, honestly. My moods change everything I listen to. So that's why I have a bunch of songs that I don't really listen to on my itunes. I want to tell you all to go check out this new clothing website, it's called CARNAGE CLOTHING and we're still working on stuff. I'm mainly just helping out so it's not really my whole thing, but check it out anyways! Official website: www.carnageclothing.bigcartel.com myspace URL: www.myspace.com/carnageclothing Much help promoting it would be appreciated :]! CARNAGE IS GOING TO BE WAY BETTER THAN BABYCAKES. Which still hasn't sent me shirt, btw. But they emailed me back saying this: Hey, I'm really sorry that your order hasn't arrived. It is completely our fault. We have a backlog of some orders from November and December. These orders are now being processed and will be sent out asap. I'm very sorry for your inconvenience and i hope you will be willing to wait just a few more days for your order. Thank you for your patience. Henry xxx Uhm that was sent to me on February 25th, and it's not March 2nd. :\ I really can't wait anymore. I don't appreciate having to wait this long for two shirts. It's ridiculous. Currently listening to: The Phrase That Pays - The Academy Is Who I must add, is going to be on Warped Tour. :] Wow, I can't wait. That reminds me... 111 days left until warped tour date #1 166 days left until warped tour date #2. I can't wait until the summer, and yet I'm scared. I don't want to go to that new school. :\ I don't want to leave my friends, but I want to go to warped. There's so many crazy things going on in my life. I hate having to deal with it. Don't you remember when you were younger, all you wanted to do was grow up? And yet now all I want to do is grow down. I wish I was 7 again. I was so pure then. I had no idea what was going in the world, and I had a good time everyday. Now I worry about EVERYTHING. I've grown up to be some paranoid freak and I hate myself for that. I just want everything to work out perfectly. I'll get my way and I'll be happy for the rest of my life! :[ Sometimes I wish I had control over everything