cellardoor08's Journal

  • 236 Entries
  • Viewing page 3 of 24

  • don't let me go.

    by cellardoor08 on August 01, 2009
    What's something you couldn't live without, other than the obvious? i couldn't live without my mother. Do your parents call you by any embarrassing nicknames? my daddy does. When it comes to dating, what's your preferred age range? ummmm. older. You've just won a free vacation! Where do you want to go? fuckkk yes, first of all. i would go to australia. Are you extremely picky when it comes to guys/girls? not really no. Do you ever read just for the fun of it? yes. but lately not much. when school starts up, i probably will do that more. Do you have any piercings? ears.tongue.belly button.nose. How old is your youngest sibling? i'm the youngest! How many baby showers have you been to? one. Are you an aunt or uncle? dammit, no. How many times a day do you crack your neck? zerooo. i crack my shoulder a lot though. Are you close with your father? could be a better relationship, but fuck it. Is English your first language? first and only. Have you ever gotten a manicure? nope. Have you ever gone to Taco Bell in the middle of the night? nope. Do you want any tattoos? yessss i dooo. Would you rather be home alone or have your family home? i would rather have someone here with me. Do you eat meat? yepp. Who is the cutest person you have talked to today? my boyffrienddd=] How often do you straighten your hair? once every couple weeks i suppose. Your best friend randomly starts hating you. What do you do? die. she is amazing. defintely don't want to lose her. Has there been anyone on your mind today? yes. Can you see a cat from where you're sitting? nope=[ When will you get your next piercing and what will it be? hmm. probably in my ear. Do you know anyone who would just drop everything to come see you? i doooo. Has the last person you texted, ever been mad at you before? i think so. Have you ever fallen asleep in someone's arm's? yeahhh=] Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds? its worse. What was the last movie you watched at a theater? that wolverine movie. I NEED TO SEE HARRRYYY POTTER. What do you own with zebra print on it? not a thing. Do you ever think about what went wrong in your last relationship? yeah, sometimes, but fuck it. i'm in a great relationship right now. Do you currently have any bite marks/hickeys on your body? nope. Think back 5 months ago, were you single? yes, i was. Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl? yes, it was an incredible waste of time, he was horrible. Do you know anyone that smokes pot? uhhh yeah. How late did you stay up last night? i don't even remember, i was wastedddd. lol. What is the connection between the last person who called you? she's my mother. Has a boy/girl ever called you babe or baby? yessirrr. Has anyone disappointed you recently? myself. Will the last person you kissed and the next person you'll kiss be the same? of courseeeee=] What's the last thing that bothered you? my arm, sheeshhh. How are you feeling right now? prettyyyy bored. What did you go to bed thinking about last night? ryan, actually. What do the majority of people in your life call you? stephanie. You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, any problems? nooope=] that'd be perfect. Does it matter if your bf/gf smokes? nope, 'cause i dooo. Do you get nervous in a car with a new driver? extremely nervous. Has anybody ever told you that you have pretty eyes? yepp. yepp. Has anyone ever sang to you? actually yes. Do you currently have a sunburn? How many friends do you have that have never smoked? hmmm. couple i guess. most of mine have. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? yes. Is it possible to be single and happy? yes, of course. i believe that with everything i have. Do you enjoy being at school? yes, i do. Name something you really want: my stomach to calm the fuck down. Are you a jealous person? normally, notttt. what is going on with me. Missing someone you shouldn't? yes. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? nope. Has anyone told you they missed you lately? yes. What was going through your mind during your last kiss? not much really, just the norm. Are tattoos attractive? EXTREMELY.
    No Comments

  • it's probably just me.

    by cellardoor08 on July 31, 2009
    For starters, where you from? michigan. i'm a yooper:] Are you dating the last person you kissed? yup, yup. What color are your bedsheets? green. How long is your hair? a little past shoulder length. What were you doing before this? doctors, getting my paycheck. Are your parents still together? helllll no. How many bedrooms is your house? uno. Do you have fake nails? nope. Where's your phone? across the room, where it belongs. I bet you miss someone? extremely. What are you doing this weekend? eh, nothing. What's the last movie you went an seen at the movie theater? the wolverine movie, it's been awhile since i've been to the movies. Connection between you and the last person that texted you? he's meh boyfriend. Do you go tanning? can't say i ever have. Do you drop your phone a lot? yepp. Is tomorrow gonna be a good day? prolly not. What is the last thing someone bought you? car parts, lol. Your best friend likes your last ex, what do you do? eh, whatever. do whatever they want. Do you ever get "good morning" texts from anyone? i use to. Do you have any nicknames? lots. Were you mad when you woke up this morning? a little. What did you do today? doctors, got my paycheck, neeeeed to clean. Do you have any pets? a snake. What's one thing that's been bothering you lately? myself. Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now? yepp yepp. Anyone you would like to get things straight with? yepp. Who do you have texts from in your inbox? ummm. renee. mike. matt. matt w. umm. ryan, jamee, some others but i'm too lazy to look. Do you get along with girls? sometimes. Where is your default picture taken? living room. Who is the last person to text you? ryan. Do you have a flip or slide phone? flip. Do you wish someone would call you right now? no. Do you ever wonder what your ex or most recent “thing” is up to? wellll i do wonder what mike is up to sometimes. Do you have to ask other people to open bottles for you? yeahhh, lol. Do you like sneezing or do you hate that feeling? i absolutely hate sneezing. What makes you feel better? writing. Do you have both a loud side and quiet side? yepp. Does anyone call you babe or baby? yepp. Who is the last person to send you a message on Myspace? i thinkkk danielle=] How many piercings do you have? belly, nose, tongue, ears. When you say you don't care, do you mean it? no. You kissed someone today, didn't you? yepp=]
    No Comments

  • i kiss your open sores.

    by cellardoor08 on July 21, 2009
    so what now from here? where do I go? Which turn did I miss in my brain that makes me feel this way. Was I suppose to turn right instead of left? I can't kept going the straight way I am going now. It's not any good. So are any of my choices any good? Was it better that I moved away? If i was to be in michigan everything would have been held back because I need to be strong. I need it. Growing up, tears were always a sign of weakness. So I stopped crying for a long time. So where did I go from there? I listened to Karen Carpenter's voice singing "We've only just begunnnnn to live....." It was the only thing that made sense, her voice. So did I make another wrong turn? Did I turn left when I was suppose to make a right? I made a left right into my brother's bedroom. My brain blocked that out till about a year ago. How I did that I have no idea. Lately, something is not clicking. It won't. Can this really be me? I cut myself because i'm numb anyway and I can't feel it anyway. I'm dead. Just dead. I believe in nothing, but i'm stil holding on to something. Just, what is it then? Am I holding on to my childhood 'cause I don't want to grow up or is ryan right when he said that i'm not accomplishing my goals fast enough. I got most everything I want, but something is gone. missing. boom. out. let me be free. let me live my life whoever whatever you are. I figured that this isn't me. I love work. I love school. I love to clean. but lately I could give a fuck about anything anymore. write me up. fail a couple clases, let the place be a fucking mess, who fucking cares anymore, right? so almost a year from now, my mental stage is in the same area. I still feel alone. I still feel helpless. I still feel scared. I still feel pessimistic. I still feel....nothing. Can this be depression or is it bi-polar? WHAT THE FUCK AM I?
    No Comments

  • how did we get here?

    by cellardoor08 on January 28, 2009
    Who are you texting? nick. It is Wednesday after​noon, where are you usually? work. Who are the last four peopl​e to send you a text message? renee. nick. jody. chelsea. What is on your mind right now? eh. What are you listening to? thursday. Do you ever go in chat rooms? i use to. like when i was 12. You need a new pair of shoes, what store do you go to first? payless. How do you feel about your hair? i still want layers. What time do you wake up for school/work? around eight am. What movie is in your DVD player? the last kiss. Last two numbers in your phone number? 56 Who calls you by a nickname? my brother. What side of the bed do you sleep on? far left. Do you like rolle​r coasters? kinda. Your last IM was from? renee. Favor​ite Beverage? vitamin water. When is the next time you will kiss someone of the opposite sex? eh, who knows. What do your pants look like? sweats from aero. Are you tired? EXTREMELY. Would you kiss the cook of tonights dinner? no. So what is going on? music. i need sleep. fuck. Laugh much? kinda. What are your plans​ for Saturday? i work. all fucking dayyy. What is the dumbest thing you have ever done with your cell phone? i was doing a price check and i was running back to my register so my customer wouldn't have to wait and my phone flew out of my pocket, slid all the way down the floor underneath the red bull machine..which nabeel had to move in order to get my phone that i'm not suppose to have on me at work. Favor​ite sit down restaurant? applebees most likely. Bubbl​e gum flavor of choice? sweet mint. orbit. Do you want to take something back that happened in the last week? last week? yeahhh. What do you want to be when you grow up? in nursing. The most excitement you had this week? HAH.
    No Comments

  • i think i know.

    by cellardoor08 on January 28, 2009
    How many people have you had strong feelings for since 2009 started? since 2009, no one. i left my strong feelings for him back in 2008. What color is your underwear? gray and black. What's on your mind? homework that i should start, but i'm going to do it tomorrow. fuck it. What were you doing right before you logged into Myspace? listening to music. Are you jealous of someone right now? nah. Do you have any deep secrets? yes. When was the last time you were surprised? today in class, man. that teacher can run. Are you mean? i can be. but mostly, yeah. Ever made anyone cry? yes. Have you ever cried over someone? of course. When was the last time you REALLY cried your heart out? first week of january. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? yes. Is there a difference between like and love? obviously. What did you go to bed thinking about last night? too much. Closer to mom or dad? mom. Do you have road rage? exteme road rage, i am horrible. USE YOUR BLINKERS. Who is in the room with you? myself. Could you ever be friends with someone who hurt you badly? i try to be. Are you there for your friends? eh. Did 2008 treat you good? it was crazy. Anyone from your past ever come to mind often? sometimes. What do you hope to have accomplished by the end of the year? have a different job, take better classes, have my own place...a lot. Could you ever be in a long distance relationship? no. What was the last thing you drank? vitamin water. Have you fell asleep in someones arms? yes. Do you like meeting new people? yes, i do. Do you like the person you are becoming? absolutely. Someone knocks on your window at 2 AM, what do you do? i roll over, think what the fuck. probably eric asking for cigarettes and he's probably drunk, too. great. Do you always answer your phone? eh, no. Have you ever wanted to be a teacher? no. Last December, single or taken? last december? december of '07? taken. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? yeah. Are you good at hiding your emotions? i think so. Do you believe what goes around comes around? karma, hell ya. Where will you be two hours from now? probably, here. Who have you texted the most this year? RENEE, for sure. Who was the last person to make you laugh? uh. jennifer. Who last called you babe/baby? probably matt. Do you have a best friend? yes. Any regrets? i should, but nope. What are you listening to right now? hollywoodundead. What's the weather like? cold.
    No Comments

  • still holding on.

    by cellardoor08 on November 26, 2008

    Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone? well, alone.




    Do you believe in ghosts? no.





    Do you consider yourself creative? i am the least creative person, ever.




    Do you know how to play poker? i did. but now, eh.





    Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? yeah, stupid.





    What are you allergic to? if i pet an animal and itch my eye, and if i eat too much of oranges.

     

    If you're driving, and no one is around, do you run red lights? sometimes.



    Do you have a secret that no one knows but you? yeah.





    Have you ever been Ice Skating? of course.



    How often do you remember your dreams? not often. i usually remember my dreams in the middle of the day.

     

    When was the last time you laughed so hard you cried? last week at work.



    What's the one thing on your mind now? my shoulder blade hurts, bad. i wonder when i pulled that?




    Do you believe in love at first sight? no.







    Do you know who Ghetto-ass barbie is? lol. nope.




    Do you always wear your seat belt? if i'm driving, yeah.

     

    Do you like mexican food? love it.

     

    Have you ever had a near death experience? yeah.





    Do you truly hate anyone? yes. one person.

     

    If you could sleep with one famous person, who would it be? johnny depp.





    Have you ever sang in front of the mirror? yeahhh.




    What food do you find disgusting? any seafood. gross.




    Do you sing in the shower? sometimes.




    Did you ever reply, "I'll show you mine, if you show me yours"? no.




    Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew? yeah.





    Have you ever been punched in the face?  been elbowed lots. and yeah, punched, accidently, maybe.

     

    Have you ever slapped someone? yes.




    Who is the next person you will hold hands with? EH. who cares.




    Are you dating the last person you kissed on the lips? HAH. no.

     



    Do you miss anybody? duh.




    Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl? yes. but it's not a waste. it seemed worth it at the time, so whatever. shit happens.






    Do you regret anything? no.




    How was last night? i slept, alot.

     

    Have you ever kissed someone and never saw them again? yes.





    Have you ever liked someone that had a boyfriend/ girlfriend? yes.





    How are you feeling right now? bummy.


    Last time you laughed? today.

     

    Excited about anything? JUNE.




    Are you someone who worries too often? yeah.

     

    Have you kissed anyone whose name started with a J? yeah.

     

    What shoes did you wear today? brown ones.



    Are you wearing socks? yeah.





    Would you ever donate blood? yeah.





    Have you ever walked on the beach at night? yes:]




    Are you with the same person as you were at the beginning of 2008? HAH. of course not.




    Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with A, B, C , D, R, , or T? yes, yes, uhhh, yes, yes, and i don't think so. if i thought hard enough, then yeah, probably all of those letters.

     

    Last time you felt bad about something? eh. today.




    If someone liked you would you want them to tell you? yeah. but it wouldn't change anything.






    How did you and your number 2 become friends? middle school.

     

    Last person to send you a comment? jane.





    Have you held hands with anybody in the past week? yeah.
     



    Biggest annoyance right now? ME.




    Have you spoken to your mother today? no.:[




    Do you drink water? of course.




    Do you care if people hate you for no reason? whatever. i'm sure there are those people out there.






    Have you ever lived with your girlfriend/boyfriend? no.





    What do you have to do tomorrow? work.

    No Comments

  • is i'm sorry for the way i am.

    by cellardoor08 on November 04, 2008

    Are you keeping a big secret right now? not big.




    What if you had a baby with the last person you texted? fuckkk that shit.




    Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for? i miss him.




    How do you feel about that? it sucks, but life moves on.


    Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning? lately, nighttime.



    Do you hate the last person you kissed? noooo. not at all.



    Do you always answer your phone? no.




    How long can you go without your phone? about a week, i'd say.





    If your ex said they hate you, you say? well.



    Are you any good at math? yeah

    How did your day go yesterday? i worked all day.

     

    Who was the last person you saw? dad.


    Does the future scare you? it used to, but not so much anymore.




    Was it a boy or girl who called you last?and who? boy. matt.



    What are you doing tomorrow? school.




    Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk? regular.



    When was the last time you had starbucks? long time ago. i was thinking about getting some today. but i didn't.

    Do you sleep on your stomach? sometimes.


    Who was the last person that made you cry? myself.



    Are you ticklish? extremely.




    Do you crack your knuckles? never. not unless someone does it to irritate the fuck outta me. ugh.



    Anything you want to ask someone? of course.



    Where were you last night at midnight? my bedddd. finally.

     

    Did you speak to your mother today? yeah.

     

    Who's bothering you right now? eh.



    Who was the last person you gave your number to? danny.



    Have you lost friends in the past year? suppose.



    Who's the last person that made you smile? hmmm. idk.



    Do you go to school currently? yes.



    Who are you expecting a call from? no one.

     

    Where did your last kiss take place? his place.



    How are you feeling right now? exhausted.



    Do you like anyone? yeah, i guess.




    Are you afraid of roller coasters? no.



    Do you tell your mom everything? yeah, i tend to.




    Are you missing someone? yes. RENEE.



    Where were you at 3:00 AM this morning? my bed.

    No Comments

  • is i'm sorry for the way i am.

    by cellardoor08 on November 04, 2008

    Are you keeping a big secret right now? not big.




    What if you had a baby with the last person you texted? fuckkk that shit.




    Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for? i miss him.




    How do you feel about that? it sucks, but life moves on.


    Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning? lately, nighttime.



    Do you hate the last person you kissed? noooo. not at all.



    Do you always answer your phone? no.




    How long can you go without your phone? about a week, i'd say.





    If your ex said they hate you, you say? well.



    Are you any good at math? yeah

    How did your day go yesterday? i worked all day.

     

    Who was the last person you saw? dad.


    Does the future scare you? it used to, but not so much anymore.




    Was it a boy or girl who called you last?and who? boy. matt.



    What are you doing tomorrow? school.




    Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk? regular.



    When was the last time you had starbucks? long time ago. i was thinking about getting some today. but i didn't.

    Do you sleep on your stomach? sometimes.


    Who was the last person that made you cry? myself.



    Are you ticklish? extremely.




    Do you crack your knuckles? never. not unless someone does it to irritate the fuck outta me. ugh.



    Anything you want to ask someone? of course.



    Where were you last night at midnight? my bedddd. finally.

     

    Did you speak to your mother today? yeah.

     

    Who's bothering you right now? eh.



    Who was the last person you gave your number to? danny.



    Have you lost friends in the past year? suppose.



    Who's the last person that made you smile? hmmm. idk.



    Do you go to school currently? yes.



    Who are you expecting a call from? no one.

     

    Where did your last kiss take place? his place.



    How are you feeling right now? exhausted.



    Do you like anyone? yeah, i guess.




    Are you afraid of roller coasters? no.



    Do you tell your mom everything? yeah, i tend to.




    Are you missing someone? yes. RENEE.



    Where were you at 3:00 AM this morning? my bed.

    No Comments

  • stand by me, nobody knows.

    by cellardoor08 on October 28, 2008
    Ever been in a perfe​ct relat​ionsh​ip?​​ doesn't exist. and no. What'​​s the last thing​ you bough​t?​​ um. mcdonalds breakfast. Did anyon​e see you kiss the last perso​n you kisse​d?​​ no. just me and him. What would​ be harde​r,​​​ for you to tell someo​ne you'​​​re in with love them or that your not? to tell someone that i am. Is there​ someo​ne that you belie​ve you will alway​s be attac​hed to? for a while, until time moves on. Been caugh​t doing​ somet​hing you weren​'​​​t suppo​sed to do? nah. Does anyth​ing hurt on your body?​​​ yeah. Who was the last perso​n you had a deep conve​rsati​on with?​​ renee, as always, i love her so very much. Are you close​ to your mom? very. Would​ you forgi​ve a cheat​er?​​​ probably. Would​ you kiss the last perso​n you kisse​d again​?​​​ yeah. Do you think​ you'​​​ll be marri​ed in 5 years​?​​​ hell, nooo. If someo​ne were to tell you they like you right​ now, would​ you care?​​ nah. whatever. change anything? obviously. everything is changing, i cannot keep up. Where​ did you last sleep​ besid​e your house​?​​​ patricks. Who was the last perso​n you cried​ in front​ of? myself. Where​ were you at 2:02 this morni​ng?​​​ my bed, duh. Hones​tly,​​​ what would​ you rathe​r be doing​ right​ now? i would rather be sleeping. Have you ever been calle​d a bitch​?​​​ obviously. Do you have a song by Kelly​ Clark​son in your itune​s libra​ry?​​​ honestly, no. What'​​​s your favor​ite movie​?​​​ i have plenty. Do you belie​ve every​one has a soulm​ate?​​​ hah. no. Have you ever made out again​st a car? hah. yeah. Who did you last talk to for longe​r than 10 minut​es on the phone​?​​​ renee. Do you get distr​acted​ easil​y?​​​ yes. Who was the last baby you held?​​​ umm. ajs:] Do you like your life?​​​ kinda, yeah. Think​ of the perso​n you'​​​d like to be with the most right​ now; When did you last talk to them?​​​ today. Is there​ a guy that knows​ every​thing​ about​ you? everything? no. Do you somet​imes use your music​ playe​r to help you fall aslee​p?​​​ yeah. What are you most excit​ed about​?​​​ no idea. ​ What were you doing​ at 8 this morni​ng?​​​ driving to class. Who is one girl you trust​ most?​​​ i trust renee. Have you told anybo​dy you loved​ them today​?​​​ yes. What are you doing​ for your next birth​day?​​​ eh, probably nothing. Do you preft​er hot or cold weath​er?​​​ cold sometimes. but lately, WARM. What were you doing​ at 7am today​?​​​ showering. Do you trust​ all of your frien​ds?​​​ nope. First​ thing​ you notic​e in the oppos​ite sex? height. What other​ names​ did your paren​ts consi​der for you? um. danielle. alexa. and ashley.
    No Comments

  • ok, ok, ok.

    by cellardoor08 on October 14, 2008
    What is your first and middle name? stephanie nicole. What's the last pill that you took? sleep aid. Do you have a good relationship with your ex? most recent? as of now, nope. Do you go to school currently? yes. Who was the last person to call you? um. jody. Last person you took a nap with & where? myself. my room. You get a phone call, your moms in the hospital, you? freak out. get in a car/plane and get my ass to that hospital ASAP. You're currently listening to? papa roach. Who are you expecting a call from? hmm. When will your next kiss take place? no idea. What are you feeling right now? anxious. Do you have any homework to do? of course. Are you happy with your life right now? kinda, yeah. Do you want a boyfriend/girlfriend right now? no. How many texts are in your inbox? i don't know. Who was the last person you talked on the phone with? jane! i love youuu
    No Comments