1. Do you have a camera phone? If so who's the 3rd picture of? yes.and me=] 2. Who's the first person who comes up under the letter m? matt. 3. Who's the last person you called? Why? mother. to tell her i feel like shittttt. 4. Who was your last missed call from? Why didn't you pick up? ann, because i don't feel good. 5. Who's the 5th person who comes up under C? cori. 6. Who's your speed dial number 2? none. 7. Who was your last received call from? mom. 8. What does your banner say? wild world. 9. How many messages are currently in your inbox? thirteen. 10. What is the background? me and ryan=] 11. Who's speed dial number 1? no one. 12. Who is the 5th message from in your inbox? What's it say? jamee to say she isn't feeling well. 13. Who is the first person under S? sam. 14. How many bars of signal do you currently have? three. 15. what service do you have? verizon. 16. Name every person you have text messages from in your inbox: argelis, renee and ray. 17. who is the 5th person under A? amy. 18. who is the 9th person on your missed calls list? some number i don't know. 19. What does the 6th text message say in your inbox? like sick? or crabby? 20. who is the first person in your contacts? abby.

so, i'm in an extremely pissy mood. what is wrong with me? What the hell made me like this? I want to punch someone in the face about a hundred times until they will not stop bleeding. I want to throw something so far, i'll never see it again. fuck this. fuck everything. fuck the letter n for it won't type that good on this fucking laptop. fuck the world for I will never get what I truly want. at least not for another four years. fuck that. fuck if i ever pass my nursing test. fuck food for it smells god awful and i don't even want to deal with it because of my fat, pudgy disgusting, infected belly. fuck hunger, for i am so hungry but won't get off my lazy fat ass to get milk for the cereal i want. fuck mike because he can never make up his mind. fuckinggg talk to me or don't motherfucker. ignore me for zero reason. go fuck yourself. could i go a year without cursing? fuck no. never. obviously. my neck hurts. my back hurts. my feet hurt. my arms hurt. everything just fucking hurts. fuck people who read this because they judge me and either think i am lame or completely truly honest. honesty is all i have and all i have to give, so it's what you get on here. CAN YOU HEAR ME YET? 'CAUSE I'M SCREAMING. JUST SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS. fuck, man. what am i suppose to do? i took some sleep aid, but it didn't work so i can't even sleep this off, i just get to deal with it. deal with what? why do i think about the past so much and let it affect me? i moved away for a fresh, indepedent start, not to just keep thinking about marquette. fuck.

Have you had sex with someone you weren't married to or weren't dating? yesssir. Do you do drugs? sometimes. Are you gay or bi? sometimes, lol. How many piercings do you have, and what are they? tongue, belly button, nose, and ears. so four. Do you have any tattoos? one. Are you under the age of 18? nope. Do you have a job? yes. Are you going to school still? Do you plan on going to college? i am already in college registering for my classes tomorrow=] How do you feel about abortion? i think it's ok. the world is overpopulated anyway. Would you get married at 18? i'm past eighteen. and no i wouldn't. Have you ever been so wasted, you couldn't walk? yessirrr. Are you a waitress or have you ever been? no. and i refuse to ever be one. Do you have a lot of sexual partners? haha. nope. Whats your G.P.A. (if you know)? wth. Have you ever owned a pair of Crocs? no. they are ugly as fuck. How often do you eat fast food? not much What was the reason for the last time you were dissappointed? he just, sucks. Do you find guitarists highly attractive? sometimes, yes. Would you ever consider vegetarianism? no. i did when i was younger but that was gayyy. When things become popular, do you start to dislike them? yes. What is your favorite television show and why? lost because it's amazing. duhhhh. What would you do if you had the flu for 5 months? just kill myself. What is a major turn off for you in the preferred sex? cockiness. and not being polite. Who would you get matching tattoos with? renee=] Do you let people walk all over you or do you stand up for yourself? i usually let people walk all over me. Do you enjoy watching plays or would you rather see the movie? a movie, for sure. Have you ever met a Holocaust survivor? yupp. Do you believe that we will ever achieve world peace? never. What medicine do you take to relieve headaches? ibpofen. Do you like foods that are both sweet AND salty? yesss, but more salty foods though. Whats your favorite quote? don't have one. Do you know anyone named Beth? yes. Do you know what V-Card means? haha, yeah. So, what are your plans for tomorrow? work, registering for classes:) Have you ever ate dog food? yupp. Do you say.. sex, fuck, or make love? sex&fuck. make love just sounds too old school. Do you wanna be a weather boy/girl when you get older? nope. Does it take you a lot to say i love you to your girlfriend/boyfriend? it takes so much. Where is your bff right now? michigan. Whats so good about lil wayne? nothing. Are you eating anything right now? no. Do you have expensive taste? sometimes, yeah. Are you in a good mood? not at all. extremely pissy.

How many cigarettes have you smoked today? two. Did you kiss anyone this summer? yes. How's your most recent ex doing? fuck if i care. Was your last kiss standing up, sitting down, or laying down? laying down, i was half asleep, he just wanted to kiss me good-bye=] What do you look like right now? shitttt. for real. Are you happy with the choices you've made? yes. Do you like to have long hair or short hair? medium length is nicee. Have you ever started a sentence with "no offense, but"? yepp. Is anybody in love with you? yes=] oh, my!! Do you like pie? LOVE IT. Have you ever attended a wedding where the couple did not get married? no. Do you have any graph paper in your house? i believe not. Are you interested in archeology? no and it's weird because every career test says i should get into this. Would you ever hire a maid or cleaning service to clean your house? sometimes i want to, but no, i can do it myself. Are there any doors in your home with a peephole? front door. Have you ever took pictures while on a ride or roller coaster? no. Do you like freeze pops? loooove them. craving them right now. Did you ever have one of those inflatable chairs or couches? no. What’s the worst way to say I love you? when a person feels guilty or doesn't mean it. fuck. Are you friends with people in lower grades? yupp. When's the last time you ate at Taco Bell? long time ago. Is it easy to annoy you? yes, yes, yes. Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn't? yes, but it doesn't matter now. Would you fall apart if that last person you kissed died? yes, i would completely fall apart. Your phone is ringing. It's your last ex. What do you say? fuckkkk you, nigga. go get highhh and drive. Do people ever call you by your last name? yup. Where is your mom right now? michigan. Where is the person who fully has your heart at the moment? work, and he doesn't FULLY have my heart. So, what if you married the last person you intimately kissed? i would actually do it. Other than yours who's bed were you on last? amber&thomas. Does that person mean something to you? yeah, they are nice people. What did you do for Valentine's Day? not a thing. i did surveys honestly, lol. Is there somebody in your life that you could not survive without? yupp. Who was the last person to cook for you? chris! Are you afraid of falling in love? not anymore. Whats your favorite candy? mike&ikes. Made any new regrets this year? i suppose, but whatev. i have no regrets. Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants? sweatpants. Are you ticklish? extremely. never tickle me. Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh? never. i need a few giggles every now and then=] What's the biggest annoyance in your life right now? eh, probably mike, honestly. Have you kissed the last person you texted? actually, yeahhh lol. Has anyone called you perfect before? yes. Tell me about the shirt you are wearing. it's free. Would you kiss an ugly person for $1,000? helll yeahhh man. i would do it for a hundred, lol. What's the last thing you put in your mouth? bomb pop=] hellz yeah. What is more important, happiness or trust? trust. Do you ever think about stuff and start crying? yes. Do you ever think "what if" about anything? always. Are you happy with the way things are going? yes. Who is your favorite person to talk to when you're down? mother. Have you ever been awake for more then 2 nights straight? yes. Have any memories that you'd like to forget? eric. Is your handwriting large, tiny, or pretty normal? pretty normal. Does anything hurt on your body right now? my entire body aches. Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on your bed? yes, it's OUR bed:] Are you wearing any make up right now? yupp. Do you get high a lot? not much. Do you think people talk about you? yes. Are you open about your feelings? never. What would you do if someone ran at you with a knife? freak the fuck out yo.

January, what was your life like? it was dull. full of drunken nights and one night stands, work, and school. Are you afraid to grow up? sometimes. but it's what i want more than anything. i want to be mature. Where is your number one person on your friends list? in michigan. Plans for Saturday? colorado. What if your boyfriend/ girlfriend called you at 2 in the morning crying? i would try to help as best as i could. Will tomorrow be a good day? probably. i'm registering for my classes! pretty excited about that, for i do like school. Are you listening to music? yupp. Is there anyone you trust 100%? no. i try though. Are there any unread messages in your inbox? no. Can you honestly say you're okay right now? no. Do you get mad easily? yes. ughhh i know how to enter shit in manually at work, i'm not retarded. When was the last time you cried? i will probably cry today. i'm in so much pain:X What color are your pants? blue. Would you marry for money? i use to think i could, but i can't. i need that connection with someone. What's something you really want right now, be honest? to just, feel better. i feel like i'm going crazy. If somebody liked you, would you want them to tell you? they could, but it wouldn't matter. i love ryan. Is there anybody you wish you could be with right now? no. i just wanna be alone right now. Whose birthday is coming up? mine! :) i had a dream i forgot about my birthday though. weird that i remember that now. eh, oh well. What should you be doing right now? i should be at work, but i'm so shaky and feel so much like shit i just went home. Were you happy when you woke up? not at all. Do you want your tongue pierced? already done:) What do you currently hear right now? shakiraaaa. i use to love her, but now. not so much, but i just wanna see her new music video on youtube. Who did you last talk to for longer than 10 minutes on the phone? mom. What's something that bothers you about girls? they are so gossipy. pisses me off. KEEP THINGS TO YOURSELF. i mean, if a person wanted to say something to someone's face, they would. Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos? yupp. i want another tattoo lovely. Last thing you did before bed last night? almost puked. Do you consider yourself lucky? i'm the most unlucky person alive. ask any casino or lottery card. Got anything you wanna say to someone? yes. if you are truly just manipulating me, go away. if you really mean what you say, stay. also, why stop talking to me? we talk continously all day everyday for a week, then boom. nothing. that hurts. If something was wrong, who is the first person you would go to? my mother. Do you miss the way things used to be? sometimes, but eh. Are you a patient person? i'm the most impatient person ever. when people are writing their checks out, i get super impatient. fuck, use a card, it's 2009 not 1948. What color is the shirt you are wearing? blacko. Which is prettier, a sunrise or a sunset? sunset. i'm never up for sunrise! Do you wear hoodies all year round? nope. Do you know someone younger than 18 that's had a baby? yepp. What did you do two nights ago? i worked. What was the weather like on your birthday? i don't remember. i think it was pretty nice 'cause i got my license that day:) yes, i did drive illegally for years, but whatever. What is the total call time on your phone? no idea. Do you have a crush on anyone? it's way more than a crush, i'm in love:) Would you like to live in New York City? no. i wouldn't. Do you miss someone? yes. Do you think they miss you too? i know so. Will you ever speak to them again? yes. When is the last time you laughed hard? eh. yesterday maybe. Have you ever been in a museum? yes. Want someone back in your life? yes. JUST PICK 1 OUT OF 3… Corona, Heineken or Budweiser? corona probably. Beer, Wine, or Mixed drink: mixed drink. Early to bed, Early to rise, Late to Rise: late to rise. Football, basketball or baseball: baseball. Internet, Radio, or TV: internet. Kiss, Hand Holding, or Hugs: all of the above, sirrrr. they are all nice. Buy, Borrow, or Lease: always best to buy. Ford, Chevy, or Dodge: i don't really know the difference honestly. Car, SUV, or Mini-Van: car. Email, Phone, or Letter: letter. California, New York, or Florida: florida. all the wayy man. Private, Public, or Semi-Private: private. Morning, Afternoon, or Night: night. Christmas, Thanksgiving, or Halloween: xmas is amazingggg. Coke, Pepsi, or Faygo: FAYGO. i miss that:( Jr. High, High School, or College: college. i hated high school with all that is in me. Beach, Mountains, or Desert: beach, of course. Cookies, Cake, or Brownies: cake. March, July, or October: october. Breakfast, Lunch, or Dinner: breakfast. Giver, Sharer, or Keeper: giver.

What grade is the last person you texted in? second year of college. Do you miss the way things used to be? sometimes, but life moves on. When did you last cry? Why? awhile ago, myself. frustrating. i frustrate myself. why can't i just open up? Is there anyone who doesn't like you? eh, probably. What are your favorite colors? blue, blue, blue. What are you doing the day after tomorow? working. registering for my classes! Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap? that seemed to be a routine with me. Is there anybody you wish you could be with right now? already am=] Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't? yes. always. Do you know anyone who acts tough, but they really aren't? haha. me. Do you listen to a wide range of music, or one specific kind? wide range. Has someone ever called you at midnight on your birthday? no. Your ex calls wanting to hangout, what do you say? sure deal. he's a nice guy=] but the other oneeeee can go to hellllll. What are some things that you have to have everywhere you go? chapstick.money.cellphone. How many chances do you tend to give people before enoough is enough? one really, i'm not too forgiving. Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you? bestest friend ever=]]]]] Where is your mother, or father? mother-michigan. father-home. Do you ever have days when you just want to stay in bed all day long? yes, always. and i can. If you had to choose between a million dollars or to be able to change a regret? million dollars. What was the last thing that made you laugh? lost. Are you the youngest person living in your house? yepp, yepp. Do you wear your seatbelt in the car? nope. Is there such thing as a perfect relationship? nooo. i suppose not. damn. If you want to get married, what age? early twenties hopefullyyyy=]]

sorry for making you think of me, it was purely by accident really. you should be sorry for me thinking of you all the time, because it really is your fault and it really is not right. sorry for making for believe i am so independent when really, i am just as dependent as the next person. sorry for making you believe i was making all the right choices because i am making all the wrong ones, and i don't know which direction to take. sorry for thinking your goal was just the same too. the same goal which is to just, sleep with me. i really thought that is all everyone wanted from me and i never wanted to trust. i can't have all the answers for you and i know you never expected me too. thank you for that. thank you for letting me lean on you whenever i cried or was down. it was more than expected and i couldn't have asked for more. everyone needs to know they are making the right choices every now and then. that is what you told me. how did you know that is exactly what i needed to hear? are you just that good? orrrr are you just that horrible? either way, it was perfect and i will probably never forget it. not yet. when are we going to hang out? not yet. it's all i ever heard, so i waited. did i deserve to wait for you? i should have made you wait for me. is this place really my home? are you really there? fuck. who knows. home.home.home. there's no place like home, there's no place like home. there's no place like home. soooooo. this must be my home, right? this has to be it. this is it, this is real, this is me. and this is you, and you. i have too many yous in life. fuck.

Do you want to know the date of your death? no. i would never want to know that. Does the last person who put their arm around you mean anything to you? yeaahhh. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? couple days ago. Who is one boy you trust most? ryan. Do you say sorry first? no. Could you go a whole year without cursing? hah. nope. Do you act differently around the person you like? nope. Are you happy with the way things are going? yes. Do you believe in forever? with someone, yes. Have you smoked a cigarette today? yes. How would your parents react if you got a tattoo? i already have one, they don't care. Have you ever kissed anyone whose name starts with a j,c,d,l,or z? i have kisseddd a j, a d, and a z. Can you go a day without thinking about the person that’s on your mind now? i haven't been able to so far. What were you doing at 1 in the morning? sleeping. What ruined your day today? work. Where would you be at in 5 years? hopefullyyy in nursing, married.

Think back to your last relationship, was it all your fault it's over? welll. i moved away to better myself and he couldn't follow through with whatever the fuck he was saying, so no. it was his fault. his decision. he can do whatever the fuck he wants, and he did, without me. Your last kiss probably meant nothing to you, right? haha. no. Who was the last person you kissed? my boyfriend=] Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance? yes, i would. Do you think blondes are stupid, honestly? no, that's a sterotype. a bad one. How did you get your last bruise? wellll. i was dropppedd. lol. If your mom worked at Hooters, what would you do? be her first customer, lol. that is great. Do you love where you live? i like gillette. it's pretty nice. What were you doing 12 AM last night? sleeeepinggg. Have you ever regretted letting someone go? sometimes, but it doesn't matter. Would you go out in public looking like you do now? yeah sure. Does your ex miss you? he doesn't care. So, what do you want for your birthday? moneeyyyy. If the last person you kissed tried to kiss you again, would you kiss back? obviously Did you sleep alone last night? nope. Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is okay? yes i really do. Has anyone ever sang to you? sure have=] Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days? If so when? yessss, and i dunno. How was your weekend? it was allright. Was you last kiss drunk or sober? sober. How do you feel right now? borreeddd. Do you like your best friend's boyfriend/ girlfriend? she has no boyfriend, but i'm sure i wouldn't like him, she has horrible taste. Did the last person who hurt you, ever apologize? noooo. Do you believe once a cheater always a cheater? no. Can a boy and girl be friends without having feelings for each other? sure can. Interested in anyone at the moment? my boyfriend. duh. Are there any words on your shirt? yepp. Who can make you smile no matter what? reneeeee. as always. Do you want a tattoo? When are you getting it? yes. in a couple weekssss=]]] Are you anything like you were at this point last year? not at all. completely different. You're stuck in an elevator with your worst enemy, what do you do? shitttt son. Will this weekend be a good one? i dunno. If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you? not right now, idc. Do you have a friend that is a complete and total flirt around everyone? yes, lol. Have you ever thrown a shoe at someone? yes. If you could be with anyone right now, who would it be? renee, honestly. Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you'll get it? i want to be a nurse, so i want that bad enough i can succeed. so yes. Have you ever been around someone who was high? of course. Do you have a best friend? yes. The last person you hugged, did you have feelings for them? yepp. sure do. Are you okay with the life you live? sometimes. Where were you at 8 tonight? it's only one fool. How often do you curl or straighten your hair? almost everyday now. Which do you prefer - eyes or lips? eyessss. Miss someone? renee. When someone says "we need to talk", what runs through your mind? ohhhh, man. Are you talking to anyone while doing this? nope.

1) Last person who told you they love you? ryannnn. 2) Last person you kissed and where? ryan, at OUR place=] 3) Last thing you bought and where? iceeeee. at subway. 4) Last person to hug you? ryan. 5) Last thing you drank? milk. 6) Last person you texted? jamee. 7) Last time you saw your number one? last january=[ 8) Favorite Drink? gatorade. 9) Favorite Candy? mike and ikes. 10) Favorite movie? i loveeee the notebook, as typical. 11) Favorite Sport? don't really have one. 12) Favorite color? blueee. 12) Describe your shirt? tanktop. white. aero. 13) What kind of pants are you wearing and where are they from? i'm not wearing any pants:X 14) How is your hair right now? messy as fuck. 15) Look to your left what do you see? lots of bikes. 16) Look to your right what do you see? lots of movies. 17) Look behind you what do you see? couch. 18) Look up what do you see? stupid ceiling. 19) Who do you miss right now? renee. mom. 20) Who is your best friend forever? renee marie adair. 21) How much are you with him/her? we live in separate states. 22) Six of your closest girl friends? uhhhh. let's see if i can even get six. jamee.krysten.jessica.renee.nikole probably.andddd amber. 23) Six of your closest guy friends? ryan.mike.nick.matt.andddd eric and probably thomas. 24) Do you have a cell phone, if so do you like it? yeahh and yeah. 25) Who's the last people you shared a couch with? ryan. 26) Where did you sleep last night and Why? my bed. 'cause it's where i live. 27) Where is your Mom? upper michigan. 28) Where is your Sister? don't have one. 29) Where is your dad? at home probably. 30) Where is your number one? in michigan at bay cliff. 31) what is your natural hair color? brown. 32) A guy that starts with J? jeremy. 33) A girl that starts with T? tamera. 34) First thing that pops in your head when i say Hot? topic. 35) Do you know what MILF means? yepp. gaayyy. 36) What is the most expensive thing in your closet? billabong sweatshirt. 37) What is something you will keep for years to come? grandpa's shirt=]]] 38) Do you have any friends in their 20's? duh. 39) Have you kissed anyone this summer? duhhhhhh. 38) Have you ever attended a drinking party? yepp. 40) Have you ever fought a girl how many people watched and were was it? lol. 50) Four guys you have wrestled or fought? wrestleddd? quite a few. 51) Who are you talking to right now? noone. 52) Are you getting your belly button pierced? already done. 53) Have you ever been over 100 pounds? am now. 54) How tall are you? five three. 55) Have you ever tried drugs? yes. 56) Have you ever been drunk? yes. 57) Whats the stupidest thing you have ever done? right now, getting my belly button pierced. 58) Has the opposite sex ever been on your bed? it's OUR bed=] 59) fnwoitgunsrghriwo? wtf. 60) What are you doing when your done with this survey? watching lost.