I'm on a cleaning spree of my iPod. And I mean an ultra raid. It's good. I just aquired 'Empires' by Animosity, can't wait to give it a spin. I'm diggin' a lot of deathcore and metalcore lately. I'm semi-craving some more power metal now though, haha. Last exam on Friday - Drama practical. I'm still trying to cram my lines into my brain monkies.

Seewa has been working for the past hour on drama, and is now sick of talking and using her voice. Seewa shall now treat herself with a round of Guitar Hero. Afterwards, she shall obtain some edibles for what we call "dinner". And finally, she shall go back to reading over her drama script. Possibly silently, due to another presence in her general vacinity.

I've been doing too many of these things lately. Thanks, therapeuticsmile. The number thing bugs me too. --- 1. Name a quote from the song you're listening to: "I can see you right before me, but it feels like you're miles away..." 2. When were you born? 22nd October. 3. Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating? Yup. 4. What are you seriously wearing? As opposed to what I'm wearing for fun? Blue jeans, DX shirt, Quiksilver hoodie. 5. When is the last time you saw the person you like/liked? Err, Tuesday. 6. Ever kissed anyone on your top friends? SongMeanings, not Myspace. 7. Describe the last time you were injured? Well, I hurt my finger at work and I have a scar thingy under my nail if that counts. 8. Do you get the full 8 hours of sleep a night? I get less than that but I'm not sleep deprived. 9. Think of all your exes. Would you take any of them back? No official exes. 10. On your "lazy days" what would you be doing? I have more lazy days than active days, haha. Watch DVDs, play the Wii or DS, go on the computer. Whatever I feel like doing. 11. Of all your friends, who would you want to be stuck in a well with? Lara, because she's strong and could help us get out. 12. Most recent movie you have watched in theaters? Sex And The City x2. 13. Who was the last person to slap your butt? Nobody has slapped my butt. Thank gawd. 14. Favorite toy as a child? Mickey Mouse. 15. Do you own a pair of Converse? Nah. 17. Do you eat cookie dough? Can't say I do. 18. Have you ever kicked a vending machine? Don't think so. 19. When's the last time you had gummy bears? I can't freakin' remember that. 20. What color are your bedsheets? Futon. 21. Do people consider you smart? Yep. Sounds arrogant but I get told I'm smart frequently, so... 22. What temperature is it outside right now? I dunno dude! 23. Have you ever stayed online for a very long time waiting for someone? Yes! I'm half doing it right now actually. 24. Could you live without a computer? Technically, yes. 25. Do you have an iPod? Listening to it right now. 26. What movie do you know every line to? There'd be a few... 27. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? Uhm, not sure. 28. Last person you hugged? JY, she's such a crack up. 29. Had a long distance relationship? Not really, no. 30. Who was the last person you held hands with? No idea. 31. At what age did you start noticing the opposite gender? That's such a stupid question. I never ignored boys because they were boys. 32. Do you know someone who likes you? No. I wish. Aw. 33. How do you handle a rainy day? I stay inside and feel warm, it's great. 34. Do you tend to be aware of what is going on around you? I'd say so, yes. Unless I'm completely in my own zone. 35. Are you cold? My hands are. 36. Do you have a lot to learn? Everybody does I guess. 37. Have you ever dreamt a dream that came true? I've had like, deja vu from a dream, but not a dream coming to life. 39. Are you a patient person? Generally. 40. Are you an impatient person? Can be. 41. Do you prefer Disney or Warner Brothers? Disneyyy. 42. When do you feel your life energy is the strongest? I couldn't pin point a specific time. 43. Are you with someone right now? No, in both senses of the question. 44. Next time you'll take a shower? Tomorrow. 45. Is anyone on your bad side now? Nah. 46. What jewelry are you wearing? None right now. 47. Who's your favorite singers/band? Err, we've been through this. Coheed, Kamelot, A Wilhelm Scream, etc, etc. There's many more. 48. Next kiss? I haven't kissed anyone in years, literally, so I have no freakin' idea. 49. Do you watch Grey's Anatomy? Nope. The names of McDreamy and McSteamy have put me off. 50. How do people spell your name? Correctly, normally. 51. Would you wear your boyfriends/girlfriends clothes? N/A. 52. Hows your life going as of right now? Overall, splendid. 53. Do you think you're ugly? Not ugly, no. I'm not a model though. 54. How's your heart? Probably very unhappy considering the food I just ate, haha. 55. Last line of a song you heard? "I can touch your body, baby, but you don't hear the words that I say." It's right after the line I first mentioned. Skillz much? 56. What are you doing tomorrow? School work during the day, money work through the night. 57.Can you honestly say your happy with who you are? Honestly? For the most part, yes. There are things I wish I could tweak sometimes but nobody's perfect. 58. Is it cute when a boy calls you babe? Not "cute", no. 60. Will you keep your last name when you get married? I'm not even engaged yet, hold on. 61.Would you rather be drunk or high? Sober. 62. When is the last time you left your house? This morning, 8AM. 63. Look through the 2 nearest windows what do you see? Curtains, my Guitar Hero guitar. 64. Who is someone you have drifted from? Oh, I was just talking about this person to someone I haven't seen in like a year last night! 65. Whose the last person you felt stalked by? In a few weeks she'll never see me again. Phew. What a freak. 66. Do you like anyone? ... *cough* 67. Do they know? Obviously you haven't been paying attention to me, Mr. Survey. 69. Do you have a dishwasher? Nope. 70. Have you ever been knocked unconscious? Nah. 71. Would you survive in prison? I dunno, it'd depend on the prison. 72. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you? That's not very specific. Depends who was going and where they were going. And when they were going. Like seriously, you've gotta plan this shit. 73. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake? Nah, I'm not retarded. 74. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000? No! 75. Who is number 1 on your top friends? SongMeanings... 76. What can you not wait to do? Finish schoooool. 77. Do you know anyone with the same name as you? Oh yes. 78. How many pairs of shoes do you own? 3. 79. Whats the last thing you ate & why? McDonalds, because my mum gave it to me. 80. Are you a friendly person? I'm friendly, but I'm not always outgoing. 82. Have you kissed anyone with a name that starts with an "A"? I don't think so, no. 83. What's the worst thing someone can do to you? I don't want to give anyone any ideas. 84. What's your middle name? Said this previously. 85. Where is your cell phone? In my pocket. 86. How are you sitting? On a chair. 87. What brand is your shirt right now? WWE. 88. Ever been to Georgia? Never been to America. 89. Do you flirt a lot? Not really, no. I'm pretty subtle though. 90. What do you call your parents? Mum? 91. What irritates you most on the internet? Everything, haha. 93. What are your plans for the future? To get past school first? 94. Do you fall for boys very easy? Nope. 95. Do you think your a good girlfriend/boyfriend? I definitely think I would be. 96. What are you listening to right now? "Goodtimes" by Joystick on repeat. L Word, mothertruckah.

"Okay." Still can't get past the fact that that was all I got from her. My friend listened to me ramble on about it for awhile last night, and she suggested maybe I should bring it up a few weeks later. Just ask for her opinion, regardless of what it is, because it's been bugging me. The thing is, I think about it; the "okay" could mean sooo many things. "Okay, you like me. That's fine." "Okay, you only want to be friends with me, nothing more." "Okay, I have no idea what you're on about." "Okay, I already knew you did but whatever." "Okay, you like girls, I have nothing against that." Like, seriously, what the hell is okay?! I'll be seeing her Monday, Wednesday, Friday. Possibly tomorrow, but not likely. I've seen her a few times post-incident and there's been little to no change. She's talking to me on MSN now, by herself I mean. Y'know, I log my dreams. Weird? Sure. It's just something I do, and I've done it for like 2 years. Anyway, over these 2 years I've been off and on with it, and I've got around 100 complete dreams stored. I don't count half-memories as full dreams. I counted today -- almost a fifth of them involve her. Like, seriously, you scroll through the most recent ones and she's everywhere. It's kind of depressing actually.

I kinda like this song actually. How they sing the word "DAMAGED!" is really cool in the chorus. I think so, anyway. From foolish.heart's journaaal. *steal* I'm gonna reorganise it because it's messy looking. --- General: Date of Birth: 22nd October, 1990. Birthplace: Australia Current Location: Home Eye Color: Hazel Hair Color: Natural red, people love me for it Height: 5'10" approximately Heritage: I don't actually know. British and Scottish... Favorites: Band/Singer: There's so maaany! Coheed And Cambria's probably my favourite, along with Kamelot and A Wilhelm Scream. I love lots of music. My taste's undergoing change though, so... Song: "Never Gonna Give You Up" - I don't care who's singing it, I love that song. Movie: Fight Club, Mean Girls, Saw, Monster, Thirteen, Meet The Robinsons... loads more. Disney Movie: High School Musical!! TV show: Sex And The City, The L Word, The Office (USA version) Color: Blue Food: Pavlova!! Yuuum... Pizza topping: Hawaiian, s'about the only topping I have Ice-Cream Flavor: Strawberry and/or banana Soda: I don't drink soft drink anymore, but when I did, Vanilla Coke Store: JB Hi Fi probably, EB's good too Clothing Brand: I wear mostly WWE or band shirts, so.. Shoe Brand: Nike Season: Spring - hurray for birthday! Month: October, birthday! Holiday/Festival: My birthday! Ah, seriously? Christmas I guess Flower: None really, not a flower gal Make-Up Item: I guess foundation, that's all I really use Board game: I used to love Cluedo, ahaha Your: Goal for this year: Survive my final year of high school Most missed memory: Old school video games, like on the SNES and the N64 Best physical feature: Probably my "hand model hands" First thought waking up: This morning it was "AHHH TURN OFF THE GODDAMN PHONE ALARM, I WAS ENJOYING THAT DREAM." Hypothetical personality disorder: OCD I guess Preferred type of plastic surgery: I prefer none Sesame street alter ego: I'd say Big Bird or Cookie Monster, others would say Elmo. Fairytale alter ego: No idea Most stupid remark: I can has good grammer. But to answer, anyone who says "lol" in person is an idiot Greatest ambition: Acting I guess, but there's a few things I'd like to do Greatest fear: Birds, dark water, fire Darkest secret: There's a reason why it's a secret! Favorite subject: Drama Strangest received gift: My friend once gave me a nail file Worst habit: Cracking my knuckles Do You: Smoke: Ew, no Drink: Not anymore Curse: Of course Shower daily: Frequently but not daily Sing: Badly Play an instrument: The triangle, booyah Get along with your parents: Of course Wish on stars: Sometimes, it's more of a comfort thing than a "grant me my wish beetch" thing Believe in fate: Yes, I believe some things are meant to happen Believe in love at first sight: No, that's lust not love Have you ever: Been Drunk: Yes, not for over a year though Been Stoned/High: Yes, only 3 times or so, never again Eaten Sushi: Hellz yeah! Been in Love: What I percieve love to be, yes Skipped school: Faked sick, yep Made prank calls: Yes! Sent someone a love letter: Nope Stolen something: Nope Cried yourself to sleep: Yep Other questions: What annoys you most in a person?: People who take a joke too far, people who can't take a joke, people who dish it out but can't take it, people without manners or respect, there's more Are you right or left handed?: Right handed What is your bedtime?: Whenever I feel like it, normally around 11PM or so Name three things you can't live without: Oxygen, water, food (AHA, I'M HILARIOUS!) What is the color of your room?: White Do you have any siblings?: Nope Do you have any pets?: Yessum, dog and cat Would you kill someone you hate for a million dollars?: Uhh, I don't hate anyone, so... What is your middle name?: Leslie, awh What are your nicknames?: Cheese, Cheesy, my manager's started calling me Sazra Are you for or against gay marriage?: I'm very much so for gay marriage. Marriage is the legal binding of people in love, love doesn't discriminate - why should we? What are your thoughts on abortion?: I think it should be a last resort, but I'm pro-choice, a woman's body is her own business. If someone's not ready to take on the responsibility of a child but wound up pregnant accidentally, there's no reason she should be forced to go through with the birth Do you have a crush on anyone?: Duuuh!!! Are you afraid of the dark?: Not afraid of it, no How do you want to die?: I don't want to? If I had to say, I guess suddenly Would you take a bullet for the one you love?: I'd pull the person in question away from the bullet without putting me in the line of fire, it's called common sense! In members of the opposite sex: Hair color: Darker shades normally Eye color: Anything really piercing, light blues or greens are my favourite Height: As long as you're not too short or too tall it doesn't bother me Weight: Not sickly thin, not overweight Most important physical feature: Eyes for sure, but I don't find physical features to be overly important Biggest turn-off: Smokers, it's disgusting

Maths exam = easy. Suspiciously easy. Hmmm... Stealed the following from BETCH. THOSE SHOES ARE MINE, BETCH. --- What does next year have in store for me? All For One - High School Musical So next year, I'll be in possession of "all"? Sweet. What does your love life look like? Artificial Sweetener - No Doubt Aha, that actually works when you think about it. What do I say when life gets hard? Pressure - Paramore Again, nice. What song will I dance to at my wedding? Echoes Of The Spirit - The Human Abstract I don't think you can really dance to this song... What do you want as a career? Whoa - Paramore Whoa, I have a career?! Your favorite saying? Blackened The Cursed Sun - Lamb Of God Yes, darn you sun. Darn you to all firery eternity. What do you think of your parents? Heroes vs. Harlots - Rifles At Recess Well, I've got no idea. Where would you go on a first date? Rosecrance - Born Of Osiris Nothing. Drug of choice? Our Ghosts - A Wilhelm Scream Getting high on Casper, whooo. Describe yourself. Thorns Of A Black Rose - Kiuas Aw, I'm not that bad... am I? What is the thing I like doing most? Take Me On The Floor - The Veronicas Ahaha!! The song that best describes the president? In Keeping Secrets Of Silent Earth: 3 - Coheed And Cambria HE'S HIDING SOMETHING. How will I die? Grand Theft Autumn/Where Is Your Boy? - Fall Out Boy I'll die in a grand theft auto incident.. in the autumn.. without a boy. The song that will be played at your funeral? The Last Journey Home - DragonForce That works fairly well too, actually. The song you'll put as the subject? The Deepest Grey - All That Remains

Done my English exams now. 2 down, 5 to go. Maths tomorrow. I've decided I want to go to Wrestlemania 2010. Why 2010? Because it's realistic. I could save up the money for then. All I need is someone to come along with me. Shit! Obsessing over Lauren Lee Smith. Ahh, great actress. Go watch Pathology and One Way. I really wanna see Picture This with The Tizz in it. Apparently everyone's in love with Twilight. Gtfo. I've got a new mobile, whooo! Eh, s'about it.

Ahh, work tonight. I think next week, after my next pay, I'll go get another DS game. Something I can just chill out and play - like a turn based strategy game, maybe Advanced Wars or something. I'm not sure just yet. Final Fantasy? Possibly. Really, I need to sit down and play ZTP. I haven't given it a good go yet. Before I do that, I need something to eat because I'm hungryyy. I've got two weeks full of exams. I have 7 exams; 2 for English, 2 for Drama, 1 for everything else. Can't wait until it's over. Then all I'll be doing is finishing off school topics and revising for my final exams. I think tomorrow will be spent mostly looking over stuff for English and finishing my script because I've only got 2 weeks to learn it. Got an acting course coming up soon too, in September. Excited! Still a little worried about stuff but like, nothing I can do. Still feeling shit about it.

Still fairly bleh when I'm left to my own devices. Today when I was watching The L Word and something really bad happened*** on the show, I bawled. That never happens to me! That's 3 days in a row that I've cried, and I'm not the crying type. Know what I just realised? 3 days I've cried, 3 days I've had shit sleep. My eyes hurt. Anyway... SL seemed okay today. She invited me to go to the mall with her this afternoon but I just went home instead. I wish I could have stayed with her but I really didn't feel up to it all. I can stay up a little later tonight because it's a late start for me tomorrow. I dunno, I'm feeling exhausted. I have to polish off some stuff for an assignment I'm handing in tomorrow -- it's 11:10PM and I haven't started, hah. Once I'm done, which should hopefully be soon, I'll be off to bed. I'll print it off tomorrow, whatever. -yawnage- *** SPOILERZ FOR SEASON 3: (For those who haven't seen it, anyway.) It was the episode after Dana had died, and everyone was reminiscing about her, and they had the second funeral after Alice stole her ashes. Lara's reaction was really sad too.

I have barely slept. I didn't sleep much the night before either. I'm still very alert and awake however. Maybe work tonight will change that? Apparently we're a bit understaffed. She wasn't at school today. Fuuuck. I think I'll send her a message asking if she's okay in a few hours - I won't even mention what I said. I'll just joke about her missing my speech (I got a few laughs from it, so yay me!) and ask if she's okay. I have it all planned out in my head. Gaaaah. I know I'll bounce back. You're just going to have to deal with me being a downer freak until I do.