yesterday i met my crush... i met him like in the most unexpected place on earth..it was at my house mini mart... that kind of feelin is really damn bloody funny,weird.. n the worst of all i was buy some women stuff..after i say hello 2 him..i ran to 1 of the sector and dump my stuff there..then later he came over n told me he had 2 go n shit like tat..omg..i cant seem 2 stop laugin..n look away..i think its so obvious tat i m so nervous..but i mean after all the confession n shit..how can i not b..i mean omg..life is jus so weird i jus can seems to stop think abt it..i mean...but i still happy tat at least we r able 2 tok..but i kinda find it hard 2 be back myself..its really not tat easy.. anyway i jus hope 4 the best between us

i've got this guy friend..who i think is really sweet...i guess he really change the way how i c this world.. when i m sad or down when i start tokin to him i really feel much better abt myself and things in the world..it is really great to hav a friend like him.. a lot of things in life is really not definate..i rmb i use to hate him last year..its amazin how we now CAN BCOME GD FRIENDS..this year a lot of events happen..i finally found mayb at the end of the day i m not who i think iam..i thought i m those kind of ppl who is not afraid of love problems n shit like tat i thought i am strong enough to take all this pain..but i m really wrong..afterall i wanna feel secure feel loved i m not tat strong...Anyway, ireally feel veri happy 2 hav a friend like tat..i wish him all the best..

i feel like i've been cheated for an ans.. n like i've been rejected 4 no reason is like kinda funny how things turn out 2 b u noe it was like playin this stupid game with my crush then somehow i kinda confess 2 him i like him..then he was all like well we cant b together cas of age differ n studies(he 2 yrs older tat me,next yr he leavin my sch this yr an important yr 4 him).. anyway i really dun know if this is true he really feels tat way or he don like me at all..jus tryin 2 give excuses n shit like tat.. wat eva it is this feelin really sux.. and on top or it i nv said tat i wann b wit him i mean lol is jus a crush rite.. i really feel vei foolish n very upset abt this.. this is so fucked up.. how shuld i even c him now i really wann get over him...but i noe i will miss him alot when he's gone

wow i didn't know we can write journals here after so long bein a member...i think it's pretty cool... Firstly of course i have to say i love music dearly.. I'm into alot of bands...punk rock music is by far my first love...though now start to listen 2 a bit of metal and rencently i'm into alternative music...which is really amazing...i think it really kindo cool how ican b so open towards many kind of sound.. the bands that i like the juliana theory unwritten law the used mcr linkin park bullet for my valentine the killers maroon 5 papa roach the beatles the cure (still got much more but these r my top few) solo artist eminem(the only hip hop rapper i like) avril.L