I Hope I Didn't Just Give Away The Ending

The first time I heard this song, it really close to home. Having just pulled out of downward spiral like a fighter pilot on his way to doom, I had spent/lost/gained days/weeks/months to a flurry of life; entwined with a girl who didn't love me but I couldn't let go of and drugs that hated me as much as I needed them. Reality leaves and mundane things are forgotten, you are so bored with the everyday you strive to make an adventure of the everynite. Your ultimate goal is to lose yourself in the moment, once that moment is over you feel emptier than ever & reach for a hand to hold. She is there, but for every comforting minute she gives you 18 more reasons to lose yourself again. The vicious cycle, the downward spiral. I guess I emerged ok, a little disoriented with my life in a mess, but it coulda been worse. would I trade the time for anything else? what do you think?

I- I like it.

This is one of the best songs of all time. And its one guy who is an absolute genius. ANd he only made one CD because he didn't like the life of a musician, so they say. And if it is i applaud the guy i'm just sad he didn't make more great music.

He may think he gave away the ending, but sadly I still don't know what it is.

Great song, though.

Gregg Alexander is a genius. This song is one of the many pieces of music that give proof to that statement. This downward spiral drug/sex/madness song is painful, silly, and profound at the same time. Drugs kill, kids. If you don't believe me, picture yourself in his shoes in this situation.

Most bizarre song on the entire album. I love it, though. About thinking you know what you're doing throughout an entire relationship, doing drugs and speeding through life like none of it really matters - but that's the truth, none of it did. He was only in it because he didn't want to be alone.

The ending, in my mind, is the fact that at the start of the song he seems like he's happy and couldn't be better, but starts to doubt it as he goes on and on.. is this real? Is anything I'm doing worth it? Well, it wasn't. And he realizes this by the end of the song, still the same lonely wreck he was before.

I really like this song! One of the best on the album!!!

I kinda agree with shikonaori.

To me this song is summed up in the lines:

"I don't even love you We weren't even friends It's just that I can't take it alone"

That's my favorite part!

I also like the part about her dad taking the coke because he thought it was sweet 'n low and dying. It is sad and humorous at the same time.

Gregg Alexander is just a brilliant story teller. Not to say this is necessarily fact or fiction, but it's just... engrossing. Not many lyrics can claim to have that quality.

Of course I agree this guy is a genius, and his record, which he mostly produced and wrote and played everything on is probably one of the greatest albums of our generation.

But about this song, I take it as more humorous than some of the others above. There are parts of this song that to me are fantasy, and are really just an imagination going wild about what could happen with a girl like this.

Either way you take it, there's a lot to digest here in these brilliant lyrics. I have always laughed when I hear this song - having even had run-ins with "Drug days" in my past. To me, this is about having a friend who has no control over her life, but you yourself having no ability to say no or distance yourself from something where you already know how it will end. The whole song it's obviious to him, and he expects the listener, how this mess will end - so it's sort of a sarcastic - "I hope I didn't just give away the ending." And of course, it ends with her death and his life ruined.

But did this ever actually literally happen? Come on, I really doubt it. It's just too over the top, and I believe intended to make you laugh, and at the same time connect with the realities of these types of relationships which some of us have experienced.

Thanks - David

everytime i listen to this (which is the highlight of this album) i look back on a past relationship. i didnt do a porno film for a coke but that line kinda reminds you of everything you would do when your with someone you really like. although theres that thought stemmed in the back of your mind that tells you this wont work out and will end soon, the truth is you cant take it alone and will take anyone that makes you feel good. i think the main theme here is sex and drugs. sex and drugs are fun and all but eventually you gotta grow up because shit starts going bad. very much a complaint song (as is the whole album) but it is telling us a story of some crazy shit and how he is upset and angry looking back on it. i think this is obviously about a girl but the story seems complete nonsense that gregg alexander just wrote in 15 minutes. you cant help but feel related to some of the lyrics on here.