This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Leaky holes and fire escapes will set the evening for tone
You and your holy halo started burning eventually just froze
Sewn into the carpet just trying to thaw out whatever I know
The thermostat it won't go higher not that you or I know
And I was drinking heavily
I burst into your bedroom belligerently
Asked her if she's done a thing like stepping out and making a scene
So foolishly I was apathetic so I blamed your family and Never mended it
Shitty brakes and balding tires we're out around on the road
You and my little sister, flashy frequent scariest snow
And we return just fine
I started to crack your analytical code
By the time you're convinced, I know
When I was drinking heavily
I burst into your bedroom confusingly
Yelled about a bunch of things
that if you looked you'd never see for our eternities
And I blamed you for not being
someone you could not be someone you'll never be
Now I see everything and everyone you see
Killing time alone inside a stripped and nakedest home
Couldn't catch my brain up with the sights and fear that I saw
Fell into the doorway hoping you had left the guitars
It's way too late for calling anyways I guess I'll doze off
It's way too late for calling anyways I guess I'll doze off
It's way too late for calling anyways I guess I'll doze off
It's way too late for calling anyways I guess I'll doze off
It's way too late for calling anyways I guess I'll doze off
I've been drinking carefully
I creep into our bedroom and watch you sleep
My mind it wanders onto things that if I try I can't explain
As if there's something worse
As if there's something worse,
to have weaned away your worth,
when I was so absurd
Well is there something worse?
You and your holy halo started burning eventually just froze
Sewn into the carpet just trying to thaw out whatever I know
The thermostat it won't go higher not that you or I know
And I was drinking heavily
I burst into your bedroom belligerently
Asked her if she's done a thing like stepping out and making a scene
So foolishly I was apathetic so I blamed your family and Never mended it
Shitty brakes and balding tires we're out around on the road
You and my little sister, flashy frequent scariest snow
And we return just fine
I started to crack your analytical code
By the time you're convinced, I know
When I was drinking heavily
I burst into your bedroom confusingly
Yelled about a bunch of things
that if you looked you'd never see for our eternities
And I blamed you for not being
someone you could not be someone you'll never be
Now I see everything and everyone you see
Killing time alone inside a stripped and nakedest home
Couldn't catch my brain up with the sights and fear that I saw
Fell into the doorway hoping you had left the guitars
It's way too late for calling anyways I guess I'll doze off
It's way too late for calling anyways I guess I'll doze off
It's way too late for calling anyways I guess I'll doze off
It's way too late for calling anyways I guess I'll doze off
It's way too late for calling anyways I guess I'll doze off
I've been drinking carefully
I creep into our bedroom and watch you sleep
My mind it wanders onto things that if I try I can't explain
As if there's something worse
As if there's something worse,
to have weaned away your worth,
when I was so absurd
Well is there something worse?
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