oh lord i'm sick of myself
i'd rather bury it than carry it
i'm desperate for help
and barely sentient means just being me
follow suit the destitute my modus operandi
a face that's marked by pallor means you're wasting away
so get a tan and raise your hands and take to feeling okay
no one enjoys the party when they're stricken with anemia
and i'm a shallow sinking surface simply screaming septicemia

peace of mind is hard to find
so i'm standing in line and feeling fine

aye me, sad hours seem long!
and even longer when you're numb
fading away and that's okay
cause life has me under her thumb

i'm languorously open ended
and the endings no good
i've been told to break the mold and i would if i could
but apathy is easier than caring at all
and the undulating nothingness means having a ball
incredibly impressive and bereft of concern
lobotomized and optimized and then i'm ready to burn
and i'm at war within myself and self is winning the fight
cause feeling like no one at all means feeling alright

sense of purpose has got me feeling worthless
and i'm fading away, but that's okay

oh yeah, all right
i'm in a big fat cage and feeling free
that's okay , that's all right
cause that's all that's left of me

goodbye, goodnight
that's all that's left of me


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    This song makes me appreciate Josh Dies's vocabulary

    tweakyon August 16, 2009   Link
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    oh wow... i think Josh is forever trapped in the 90s... maybe not in sound... but in attitude... the rest of the world has moved on to fireflies... being human and bad romances... and has seemed to forget that its still less dangerous with the lights off... and despite all its rage, it still complains that there's no rain... i think its about ordinary, everyday, good old fashion teen angst...

    alivingdead1on December 21, 2009   Link
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    Alivingdead1, you're very funny :)

    I can sure relate to this song in how I try to strive to live the way God would have me. Sometimes the apathy can overtake you, but there is always hope in Jesus Christ. I've been a Showbread-lover for a long time, and they continue to be so much fun!

    mybloodrunswarmon June 03, 2010   Link

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