Swallow

Everyone wants to make this song a relationship. But are we all forgetting people that EA is ASEXUAL!!! So in my mind I feel its about her whole change of tune!!! Here's my interpretation.

I'll tell the truth: all of my songs Are pretty much the fucking same (She feels that she can never be happy after the asylum and all of her songs are all very depressing but have hope)

I'm not a faerie but I need More than this life so I became This creature representing more to you Than just another girl (Though she has moved on from her Enchant Era she isn't satisfied being normal, so she decided she needed to become the best musician she could, that way she could still feel like she was different.)

And if I had a chance to change my mind I wouldn't for the world (She has accepted her institutionalization and has decided to move on with her life, because it has inspired a whole new music for her.)

Twenty years Sinking slowly (This is her talking about her slowly declining depression that eventually led to her being suicidal.)

Can I trust you But I don't want to (She has stated in her interviews that she wishes she wouldn't have told anyone about her depression, because she feels that people deal with it way to harshly and don't understand it at all.)

I will swallow If it will help my sea level go down But I'll come back to haunt you if I drown (She will accept this new look on life, but if she ever falls into her state of suicide again she is going back to the people she told to show them that mental institutions don't really help.)

I don't want to be a legend Oh well that's a god damned lie - I do (Going back to the fact that she wants to be amazing and retain her faerie-like attitude.)

To say I do this for the people I admit is hardly true (She is stating that she isn't trying to be the emo-chick girl. Though some people want her to be.)

You tell me everything's all right As though it's something you've been through (She is saying that the people she told didn't understand her being suicidal at all.)

You think this torment is romantic Well it's not except to you (The fans love her gloomy, dark sound, and she just wants to return to her happy light-hearted sound.)

Low tide and high tea The oysters are waiting for me (Her true fans are still longing for her faerie-ness.)

If I'm not there on time I'll send my emissary (Even though the fans want her to be a faerie she can't so she'll try to give them the closest thing she can.)

If I photoshop you Out of every picture I could Go quietly quiet But would that do any good (If she could forget her previous self she would, but she can't. If she does, she will forget all the happy things in her life.)

Will it hurt? No it won't Then what am I so afraid of (She's at war with herself about her wanting to forget her happiness, because she's seen all of the love she's received from her new fans.)

Filthy victorians They made me what I'm made of (Her alter-ego in the institution was a Victorian girl. Victorians started the brutal institutions. If it weren't for them she wouldn't have had to change.)

The brighter the light The darker the shadow (The more she looks back on her previous self, the more aware she becomes of her new self.)

I don't need a minder I've made up my mind Go away (She's talking to her mind saying she wants this confusion to end. She just wants to be relatively normal.)

**Reply please and and let me know what you feel about my interpretation. I'm also open to the belief that it's about her struggling with drugs possibly, but I can't make all the lyrics point to that.