Gothic Lolita

From Emilie Autumns webjournal:

Posted: Mon Oct 25, 2004 2:41 am Post subject: Gothic Lolita, Round 2

So I'm home tonight finishing the lyrics for a song on my upcoming "Opheliac" album entitled "Gothic Lolita." Oddly enough, it's not about the fashion, though I am a huge fan of that as well (duh), but rather about the real thing, if you know wheat I mean. Really, what's more "gothic" than a child who grows up dead because of emotional murder at the hands of hapless pedophiles? Autobiographical? Well, sure, but find me a little girl who hasn't been fucked around with by some professor or other and I'll turn a rat into a bouquet of tea roses, I'm not so fucking special. So I'm having a bit of a hard time with it I don't mind saying, or maybe I do, because songs generally come so very easily to me, like trains of thought that happen to magically rhyme - not boasting a bit, because there's plenty of shit I'm bad at, like driving cars for example. So it really traumatizes me when the songs don't come easily because of some stupid block or because I'm subconsciously denying that any of this ever happened. Writing this song puts me into a really foul mood too. Time for some wine and soy cheese.

That ought to settle it, no?

The kind of murder where nobody dies seems to relate to loss of innocence. As a victim of sexual abuse where my abuser was never blamed this song is gorgeous to me. Emilie's just so sarcastic about it all. ' I /perfectly/ understand. So it's /my/ fault?' And the constant little dig she gives 'You never did anything any man wouldn't do...' It's also sad though because it shows her being left 'a bundle of broken nerves' and that mouth full of words she'll never say is obviously 'he raped me and I couldn't do a thing about it.' If you listen to the Opheliac Companion Album (Basically the commentry (This songs commentry is 96 minutes something long)) She goes on to explain that it is about her. It is about what she's been through, and the fact that Lolita is seen as dressing up as almost dead little girls links to dead innocence.

this song to me sounds like a girl who was raped or sexually asulted as a child

It seems like it's mostly based on the story of Lolita, a twelve year old girl who was kidnapped and abused by a middle-aged man called Humbert Humbert in a book actually called 'Lolita' by Vladimir Nabokov.

This song is what made me read Lolita, actaully...

unfortunately i know this story too well.... touching lyrics. i don't like the song but lyrics are almost too honest...

sexual abuse kills. it really does. then one day you wake up, see you have grown up and completely dead inside.

This song reminds me of a manga I read where a paedophille got into a realtionship with a girl of consenting age (just), but she acted and thought like a child (possibly mentally handicapped). Through this, he basically had the opportunity of legal paedophillia:

'Then you are a criminal And you should be killed By an army of little girls The law won't arrest you The world won't detest you You never did anything Any man wouldn't do'

Emilie Autumn was sexually abused, and this is a song about her experiences. It's a disturbing but truthful look at being the victim of sexual abuse.

im pretty sure this song's autobiographical, i read the thing too about her saying 'a fellow rape victim' :/ poor thing

Most of you have already interpreted this song as I see it, but I wanted to say I think Gothic Lolita is referring to Emilie herself as the gothic version of Lolita - she was in the same situation as Lolita, and she's gothic. Yeah.