I'm not myself when you're around
I'm not myself standing in a crowd
I'm not myself and I dont know how
I'm not myself, myself right now

Jesus Christ, will you look at me
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Don't really know if I should give a damn
When you're around
I dont know who I am

I'm not myself when you go quiet
I'm not myself all alone at night
I'm not myself, don't know who to call
I'm not myself at all

Jesus Christ will you look at me
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Don't really know if I should give a damn
When you're around
I dont know who I am

I always wished that I could find
Someone as beautiful as you
but in the process I forgot
that I was special too

I'm not myself when you're around
I'm not myself standing in a crowd
I'm not myself and I dont know how
I'm not myself, myself right now

Jesus Christ will you look at me
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Someone say if I should give a damn
When you're around
I dont know who I am

I always wished that I could find
Someone as beautiful as you
but in the process I forgot
that I was special too

I always wished that I could find
Someone as talented as you
but in the process I forgot
that I was just as good
as you


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    Can't believe no one has commented on this song yet.

    To me this song reflects someone realizing that they have completely changed who they are to fit into what another person (in this case, presumably a lover) wants them to be. When the relationship ends, or when they finally realize what is happening, they are left with no idea who or what they really are inside.

    I think the use of "Jesus Christ" isn't meant in any kind of religious context, I think it's meant to be sarcastic, like "Jesus, look at me, what the fuck is going on"

    mikeygoestohollywoodon March 10, 2010   Link

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