This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
so what now? where do we go from here? the damage is so severe and what
you've done will never fuckin be repaired. but what's done is done, son.
you'll never understand, but here we are again, yeah here i am again. and
what the fuck is it gonna take? how am i ever gonna make myself a man again
and bring myself to stand again? on my own two fucking feet. you better
tell me what to do cus it's you this time that failed me. you failed me. you
failed us all. nothing left for us to say. nothing more between you and me.
all my trust is gone. but never my vindication. vindication. so what the fuck?
where do we go from here? the damage is done so bite your tongue because your
words will never be sincere. what's done is done, son. you'll never understand.
blood on my hands again. that's what it's gonna fucking take. and you can bet
your ass i'm gonna make you pay. the time has come for you to see. what
you've done, what i've become and how you failed me. you failed me. you failed
us all. nothing left for us to say. nothing more between you and me. all my
trust is gone. but never my vindication. you can't take my pride away from
me. the one thing you'll never take away. you can't take my pride from me and
that's all there is to say. you can't kill integrity. and that's all there is
to say. you can't take my pride from me. but i've got one thing left to say.
pay your debt to me.
you've done will never fuckin be repaired. but what's done is done, son.
you'll never understand, but here we are again, yeah here i am again. and
what the fuck is it gonna take? how am i ever gonna make myself a man again
and bring myself to stand again? on my own two fucking feet. you better
tell me what to do cus it's you this time that failed me. you failed me. you
failed us all. nothing left for us to say. nothing more between you and me.
all my trust is gone. but never my vindication. vindication. so what the fuck?
where do we go from here? the damage is done so bite your tongue because your
words will never be sincere. what's done is done, son. you'll never understand.
blood on my hands again. that's what it's gonna fucking take. and you can bet
your ass i'm gonna make you pay. the time has come for you to see. what
you've done, what i've become and how you failed me. you failed me. you failed
us all. nothing left for us to say. nothing more between you and me. all my
trust is gone. but never my vindication. you can't take my pride away from
me. the one thing you'll never take away. you can't take my pride from me and
that's all there is to say. you can't kill integrity. and that's all there is
to say. you can't take my pride from me. but i've got one thing left to say.
pay your debt to me.
Lyrics submitted by emoxcorekid
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I love this song. It's so powerful. For one thing, integrity is something that you stand for. Something that you strongly believe in. This person who "failed" him, stood against what he stood for. Now he wants them to pay him back.