This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
wake up and waste a day
chase away
a day at a time
and waste away
clean-faced today
clean taste today
toothpaste makes my orange juice sour
waste an hour
or so
my shower is slow
the flowers that grow
outside of my window
are blooming
I'm assuming
that you're comin' over soon
it's almost half past four
and you called here at noon
'cause there's a picture that you wanna see
now I'm not even good at being me anymore.
She's got nicotine-basted lungs
wasted thumbs
and one of them asphalt tastin' tounges
she wakes up to her alarm
her make-up is still on
and she can't remember why she set the damn thing
her heart is a machine
art is meant to be seen
not felt
not heard
it's just paint
they're just words
and fingers are for feeling
fists are for beating
scabs are for healing
and blood is for bleeding
that's just how I used to be
but I'm not even good at being me anymore
I wake up and waste an hour
pace and glower
at the TV set wasting power
aching in my head
I'm banking in the red
and compulsively charging cd's to my account
so come out Virginia, don't make me wait
you Catholic girls start much too late
now it's too late in the day
for a matinee
and I ain't got the money to pay
for you anyway
what should I say?
I know it ain't how it used to be
but I'm not good at being me anymore.
chase away
a day at a time
and waste away
clean-faced today
clean taste today
toothpaste makes my orange juice sour
waste an hour
or so
my shower is slow
the flowers that grow
outside of my window
are blooming
I'm assuming
that you're comin' over soon
it's almost half past four
and you called here at noon
'cause there's a picture that you wanna see
now I'm not even good at being me anymore.
She's got nicotine-basted lungs
wasted thumbs
and one of them asphalt tastin' tounges
she wakes up to her alarm
her make-up is still on
and she can't remember why she set the damn thing
her heart is a machine
art is meant to be seen
not felt
not heard
it's just paint
they're just words
and fingers are for feeling
fists are for beating
scabs are for healing
and blood is for bleeding
that's just how I used to be
but I'm not even good at being me anymore
I wake up and waste an hour
pace and glower
at the TV set wasting power
aching in my head
I'm banking in the red
and compulsively charging cd's to my account
so come out Virginia, don't make me wait
you Catholic girls start much too late
now it's too late in the day
for a matinee
and I ain't got the money to pay
for you anyway
what should I say?
I know it ain't how it used to be
but I'm not good at being me anymore.
Lyrics submitted by nikki04
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