This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Counting off the days
How could I be so afraid?
So much nearer my gloom
That much nearer without you
I've been on the run
From the dirt you talk about everyone
So much nearer my gloom
That much nearer without you
And it's so hard to starve...
How could I be so afraid?
So much nearer my gloom
That much nearer without you
I've been on the run
From the dirt you talk about everyone
So much nearer my gloom
That much nearer without you
And it's so hard to starve...
Lyrics submitted by saturnine
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maybe the girl hes with is a bad influence and isnt a good person and he just wants to get away from her. and sooo... "counting off the days, how could i be so afraid?" sooner or later hes gonna be with her again and so hes just waiting for that day, but really hes afraid of that moment and dreading it because he really doesnt want to see her. "ive been on the run from the dirt you talk about everyone." apparently shes not a good person so thats why he doesnt want to see her anymore. and keeps running away either physically or emotion... or both. "so much nearer my gloom. that much nearer without you." what i understand is that he really loves her and wants it to work out but realizes that shes just no good. soo its a lose/lose situation for him because 1.) hed be sad if he stayed with her and her cruel intentions. and 2.) hed be sad if he left her because he really did love her and would miss her. so either way hed be that much nearer his gloom. "and its so hard to starve..." i think thats the turning point of the song. this is where he finally made his decision. i think he finally left her and now he is starving for what they had and having her with him regardless of how she was. so hes having a hard time living alone without being loved but he knows hes better off... even though it hurts and its hard.
oh gosh. idk if that makes any sense to you guys but thats my interpretation. any others? ahh i love these guys.