i think its about suicide. he is saying that he just cant get out of his depression and so he needs to find reasons to carry on with his life, things which will prolong his life and distract him from killing himself, obviously by the last line its too late.
i think its about suicide. he is saying that he just cant get out of his depression and so he needs to find reasons to carry on with his life, things which will prolong his life and distract him from killing himself, obviously by the last line its too late.