I personally interpret it as being in the cycle of a toxic relationship that can’t escape whether it’s family, school, or work. Here’s my breakdown
I felt the hate rise up in me (Contempt for the other person)
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves (Hurt the other person’s ego “stone of leaves” being a weak and easily breakable things if taken literally)
I wandered out where you can’t see (Talking to people about the situation behind their back)
Inside my shell I wait and bleed (Waiting for the bad part of the cycle to be over)
I wipe it off the tile, the light is brighter this time (The end of the cycle)
Everything is 3-D blasphemy (But hating that it was real)
My eyes are red and gold, the hair is standing straight up (Built up anger)
This is not the way I pictured me (Wishing this wasn’t how things were)
I can't control my shakes!
How the hell did I get here?
Something about this, so very wrong (Wondering why things are like this)
I have to laugh out loud, I wish I didn't like this (Holding it together while not solving anything)
Is it a dream or a memory? (This line makes it clear that it has happened before, while the narrator isn’t sure if it’s happening again or not)
Get outta my head 'cause I don't need this!
Why didn't I see this? (Not wanting it to return)
I'm a victim Manchurian Candidate (Feeling like everyone is against you)
I have sinned by just
Making my mind up and taking your breath away (Fighting back against the bs thrown at you)
You haven't learned a thing
I haven't changed a thing (Nothing changing, just continuing with life)
The flesh was in my bones (idk)
The pain runs always free (It never leaving your mind)
I think “And it waits for you” is the person not healing and passing on to the next generation.
That’s just my interpretation, tell me your thoughts.
I personally interpret it as being in the cycle of a toxic relationship that can’t escape whether it’s family, school, or work. Here’s my breakdown
I felt the hate rise up in me (Contempt for the other person) Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves (Hurt the other person’s ego “stone of leaves” being a weak and easily breakable things if taken literally) I wandered out where you can’t see (Talking to people about the situation behind their back) Inside my shell I wait and bleed (Waiting for the bad part of the cycle to be over)
I wipe it off the tile, the light is brighter this time (The end of the cycle) Everything is 3-D blasphemy (But hating that it was real) My eyes are red and gold, the hair is standing straight up (Built up anger) This is not the way I pictured me (Wishing this wasn’t how things were) I can't control my shakes! How the hell did I get here? Something about this, so very wrong (Wondering why things are like this) I have to laugh out loud, I wish I didn't like this (Holding it together while not solving anything) Is it a dream or a memory? (This line makes it clear that it has happened before, while the narrator isn’t sure if it’s happening again or not)
Get outta my head 'cause I don't need this! Why didn't I see this? (Not wanting it to return) I'm a victim Manchurian Candidate (Feeling like everyone is against you) I have sinned by just Making my mind up and taking your breath away (Fighting back against the bs thrown at you)
You haven't learned a thing I haven't changed a thing (Nothing changing, just continuing with life) The flesh was in my bones (idk) The pain runs always free (It never leaving your mind)
I think “And it waits for you” is the person not healing and passing on to the next generation.
That’s just my interpretation, tell me your thoughts.