Doseone is talking about his beginnings in music and his first big rap competition, Scribble Jam, in which he battled Eminem.
In this piece he is talking about his pre-freestyle battle anxiety and what could have happened if he would have been overwhelmed by his anxiety and loose.
"Will want you perfect like a leading white male, well could you be?": the leading white male is the judge of the freestyle competition; serious, composed and fearless. And Drucker wished to be like him.
“Leading white male” could be a double entendre with the top in a top and bottom relationship, meaning that, like the judge was dominating the stage with his imperious attitude, Drucker wanted a partner that could dominate him like the judge was dominating the audience. Hence the “well, could you be?” at the end of the phrase.
The most crucial and heartbreaking point in the song is the pre-chorus:
"Like a large dollop of grey plopped hard, in the plain water of hack, you sink": Drucker is talking what could have happened if he lost to the competition against Eminem, simply, he would have died of a drug overdose, fueled by his anxiety. The heroin is hereby described as a “dollop of grey”, since heroin is made by boiling it into a spoon)
In the second verse Drucker is talking about the debts officer promise and his army of a hundred forks... like another user in this comment box said, this could be a methaphor of Drucker being to be dryed by those forks, and he is desperate for work and keeps searching for something that can put him out of all of this.
In short: he would have become a middleclass worker, loosing his identity and loved ones, destinated to die alone.
Doseone is talking about his beginnings in music and his first big rap competition, Scribble Jam, in which he battled Eminem.
In this piece he is talking about his pre-freestyle battle anxiety and what could have happened if he would have been overwhelmed by his anxiety and loose.
"Will want you perfect like a leading white male, well could you be?": the leading white male is the judge of the freestyle competition; serious, composed and fearless. And Drucker wished to be like him.
“Leading white male” could be a double entendre with the top in a top and bottom relationship, meaning that, like the judge was dominating the stage with his imperious attitude, Drucker wanted a partner that could dominate him like the judge was dominating the audience. Hence the “well, could you be?” at the end of the phrase.
The most crucial and heartbreaking point in the song is the pre-chorus: "Like a large dollop of grey plopped hard, in the plain water of hack, you sink": Drucker is talking what could have happened if he lost to the competition against Eminem, simply, he would have died of a drug overdose, fueled by his anxiety. The heroin is hereby described as a “dollop of grey”, since heroin is made by boiling it into a spoon)
In the second verse Drucker is talking about the debts officer promise and his army of a hundred forks... like another user in this comment box said, this could be a methaphor of Drucker being to be dryed by those forks, and he is desperate for work and keeps searching for something that can put him out of all of this.
In short: he would have become a middleclass worker, loosing his identity and loved ones, destinated to die alone.