Just came back from a trip to Switzerland with one of my best friends who I realized I am deeply in love with. Literally hiking the snowy mountaintops of the winter wonderland with her, above the endless seas of clouds reflecting the sunlight under the indomitable forms of the mountains...I'm waiting even though I know it will never be (I tried, believe me), but that's alright with me. I have gotten my answer and am in the process of grieving the possibility of the fantasy I had in my mind. A sort of heartbreak, if you will. It's been almost 8 years since we've met and I've survived it, to keep her in my life I'll survive it forever, until a new love can wash it all away...though I think I'll always appreciate her in that light, even if only slightly. Can't help it. The heart is as strong as the mind...but I will be stronger. Love you, J.
Just came back from a trip to Switzerland with one of my best friends who I realized I am deeply in love with. Literally hiking the snowy mountaintops of the winter wonderland with her, above the endless seas of clouds reflecting the sunlight under the indomitable forms of the mountains...I'm waiting even though I know it will never be (I tried, believe me), but that's alright with me. I have gotten my answer and am in the process of grieving the possibility of the fantasy I had in my mind. A sort of heartbreak, if you will. It's been almost 8 years since we've met and I've survived it, to keep her in my life I'll survive it forever, until a new love can wash it all away...though I think I'll always appreciate her in that light, even if only slightly. Can't help it. The heart is as strong as the mind...but I will be stronger. Love you, J.