The artist “Alanis Morisette” and song “Not As We” were always a favorite of mine. Like many of you, I loosely felt that the song was about a break up as well, most likely it probably is. However, approximately 10 years ago, l loss the brightest star in my solar system, my daughter. The first time hearing this song following the loss landing on me completely different. Its meaning was much deeper. The lyrics felt personal. “ Day one, day one, start over again
Step one, step one, I am barely making sense
From now I'm faking it 'til I'm pseudo making it” was how each day felt. The lyric “Eyes wet, toward
Wide open frayed
If God's taking bets
I pray He wants to lose” entered my soul with demon energy, and all I wanted to do was fight God for the rights to my daughter’s soul.
Alanis and her team are spectacular writers. I always wanted to know if the origin of this song started with a loss. Either way, this song made me feel seen during a period where I often chose invisibility. It helped me understand that the process of rebirth was afoot.
The artist “Alanis Morisette” and song “Not As We” were always a favorite of mine. Like many of you, I loosely felt that the song was about a break up as well, most likely it probably is. However, approximately 10 years ago, l loss the brightest star in my solar system, my daughter. The first time hearing this song following the loss landing on me completely different. Its meaning was much deeper. The lyrics felt personal. “ Day one, day one, start over again Step one, step one, I am barely making sense From now I'm faking it 'til I'm pseudo making it” was how each day felt. The lyric “Eyes wet, toward Wide open frayed If God's taking bets I pray He wants to lose” entered my soul with demon energy, and all I wanted to do was fight God for the rights to my daughter’s soul. Alanis and her team are spectacular writers. I always wanted to know if the origin of this song started with a loss. Either way, this song made me feel seen during a period where I often chose invisibility. It helped me understand that the process of rebirth was afoot.