La petit mort or the little death is an old euphemism for orgasm. So, when he's talking about dying every night in her honor, he means he's fantasized about her to the point of completion and then lingered in a state of limerance about her.
He knows he can't form a relationship with her and imagines that someone else is going to get to her first. Teenage rebellion isn't about rebelling against his parents but against the reality he knows, fate, destiny, God, whatever is in the way of him getting to be with the girl he's in love with.
La petit mort or the little death is an old euphemism for orgasm. So, when he's talking about dying every night in her honor, he means he's fantasized about her to the point of completion and then lingered in a state of limerance about her.
He knows he can't form a relationship with her and imagines that someone else is going to get to her first. Teenage rebellion isn't about rebelling against his parents but against the reality he knows, fate, destiny, God, whatever is in the way of him getting to be with the girl he's in love with.