I believe this song is about the protagonist, and their struggles with grief, and/or anxiety, but eventually managing to overcome these struggles.
⠀
It was said that:
⠀
"I keep the phone by my side
Afraid she'll wake me up to catch the next flight
In time to say goodbye"
⠀
This implies that the protagonist's father is ill (possibly terminally).
⠀
It was also said that:
⠀
"I can't stand myself"
⠀
This, fitting in line with the previous interpretation, describes one of the seven stages of grief, guilt. Although the protagonist may not feel directly responsible for the (implied) death, it is likely there was some guilt about lost time, and missed opportunities.
⠀
In the end, it appears that the protagonist may not have completely recovered, but is healing, and learning to cope with the loss of their father, as seen in quotes below.
⠀
"I think I'm gonna finally give myself a new try," "Because I'm holding my own in a great big storm."
I believe this song is about the protagonist, and their struggles with grief, and/or anxiety, but eventually managing to overcome these struggles. ⠀ It was said that: ⠀ "I keep the phone by my side Afraid she'll wake me up to catch the next flight In time to say goodbye" ⠀ This implies that the protagonist's father is ill (possibly terminally). ⠀ It was also said that: ⠀ "I can't stand myself" ⠀ This, fitting in line with the previous interpretation, describes one of the seven stages of grief, guilt. Although the protagonist may not feel directly responsible for the (implied) death, it is likely there was some guilt about lost time, and missed opportunities. ⠀ In the end, it appears that the protagonist may not have completely recovered, but is healing, and learning to cope with the loss of their father, as seen in quotes below. ⠀ "I think I'm gonna finally give myself a new try," "Because I'm holding my own in a great big storm."