The first verse about self-care and the mention of bleeding just to feel alive makes me think this song is about cutting. I think it's using cutting as a metaphor for having different kinds of trauma scars, goading other people towards abusing her because the scars will just make her stronger and society will call them sick, because that's how they want to be seen in the world. I think there's a bit of irony going on that she wants to live in regret and break the silence with violence. That's a voice in her head, put there by her abuser, telling her what she wants. But I also think she's attempting to internalize that abuse and take control of it by becoming her own abuser. She wins because she's doing the metaphorical cutting instead of letting someone else do it.
The first verse about self-care and the mention of bleeding just to feel alive makes me think this song is about cutting. I think it's using cutting as a metaphor for having different kinds of trauma scars, goading other people towards abusing her because the scars will just make her stronger and society will call them sick, because that's how they want to be seen in the world. I think there's a bit of irony going on that she wants to live in regret and break the silence with violence. That's a voice in her head, put there by her abuser, telling her what she wants. But I also think she's attempting to internalize that abuse and take control of it by becoming her own abuser. She wins because she's doing the metaphorical cutting instead of letting someone else do it.