I already know quite a lot about the backstory of Ian, and I get the impression that his marriage was failing as there was a lot of distance between him and Debby, he feels frustrated with the decisions he's made, maybe it was marrying at age 19? Having a child at 22? Locking himself into a mortgage very early in adulthood?
It's almost as if Ian deeply regrets these decisions, and he's deeply rooted himself into commitments that he doesn't want to fulfill anymore. It would make sense as he was having an affair. Perhaps he felt as if his marriage was a complete mistake, and he shouldn't have had a child with Debby... at least at such a young age.
Throughout Unknown Pleasures it's as if he is expressing his deep guilt about not wanting to fulfil his family duties anymore... he wanted to be free of it and discover himself a bit more, but he also still wanted to be in the lives of Debby and their kid. Debby probably didn't want anything to do with him after she found out about the affair.
This song in particular is the expression that actually, him and Debby never really knew each other that well at all in the first place. Heartbreaking.
Ian's suicide was probably due to all of this, the impending divorce proceedings, anger from Debby, new partner, new place to live in, and the stress of the American tour - I think he really didn't have the mental fortitude to handle it all of these huge things in his life at the same time, hence he killed himself to relieve that pain.
I already know quite a lot about the backstory of Ian, and I get the impression that his marriage was failing as there was a lot of distance between him and Debby, he feels frustrated with the decisions he's made, maybe it was marrying at age 19? Having a child at 22? Locking himself into a mortgage very early in adulthood?
It's almost as if Ian deeply regrets these decisions, and he's deeply rooted himself into commitments that he doesn't want to fulfill anymore. It would make sense as he was having an affair. Perhaps he felt as if his marriage was a complete mistake, and he shouldn't have had a child with Debby... at least at such a young age.
Throughout Unknown Pleasures it's as if he is expressing his deep guilt about not wanting to fulfil his family duties anymore... he wanted to be free of it and discover himself a bit more, but he also still wanted to be in the lives of Debby and their kid. Debby probably didn't want anything to do with him after she found out about the affair.
This song in particular is the expression that actually, him and Debby never really knew each other that well at all in the first place. Heartbreaking.
Ian's suicide was probably due to all of this, the impending divorce proceedings, anger from Debby, new partner, new place to live in, and the stress of the American tour - I think he really didn't have the mental fortitude to handle it all of these huge things in his life at the same time, hence he killed himself to relieve that pain.
@Unknown867 well, that and his worsening epilepsy and the endless, useless drugs doctors had him on. Along with his deep depression
@Unknown867 well, that and his worsening epilepsy and the endless, useless drugs doctors had him on. Along with his deep depression