It's obviously about previously said only physical relationship with no strings attached, but because I never had such experiences, I always connected the song with being the most supportive person to the one you fell very hard for, but somehow you're still the second place. You're the one they spend the most time with so you eventually started to feel special, or just want to be special because it's you they have the most of. But despite all the closure you want to give them, they still seem so distant because they just use you to help themself like some sort of painkiller you willingly are because you love them so much you want to satisfy them and you can't understand how the hell you give so much of yourself for someone and you're somehow still not their first choice, how there's still someone else, someone above you and it kills you to know that you're basically just a support for a broken person that would eventually leave you once they don't need your help anymore and just go to the person who somehow still beats you. And putting their feelings above your own you don't even feel like you should show how deeply you actually care about them, so you might eventually sometimes isolate yourself, giving them space, but no matter how down you are you know you would never just let go because you just fell too hard. And never get anything in return
It's obviously about previously said only physical relationship with no strings attached, but because I never had such experiences, I always connected the song with being the most supportive person to the one you fell very hard for, but somehow you're still the second place. You're the one they spend the most time with so you eventually started to feel special, or just want to be special because it's you they have the most of. But despite all the closure you want to give them, they still seem so distant because they just use you to help themself like some sort of painkiller you willingly are because you love them so much you want to satisfy them and you can't understand how the hell you give so much of yourself for someone and you're somehow still not their first choice, how there's still someone else, someone above you and it kills you to know that you're basically just a support for a broken person that would eventually leave you once they don't need your help anymore and just go to the person who somehow still beats you. And putting their feelings above your own you don't even feel like you should show how deeply you actually care about them, so you might eventually sometimes isolate yourself, giving them space, but no matter how down you are you know you would never just let go because you just fell too hard. And never get anything in return