I believe that the singer is in a relationship and is aware of his selfishness, lust, flawed humanity, etc. and is doesn\'t believe he\'s capable of meeting the needs of his partner. This makes sense because he\'s describing his worst qualities and yet immediately switches to ask why his partner is so fond of and desiring of him.\n\nHe\'s also somewhat aware that his partner is enjoying being with him, which is actually eating at him even more ("are you having your fun? I never agreed to be your holy one"). He is at a loss at this trapped feeling. Is he supposed to continue pretending to be the one for her while he feels utterly incapable just because she is enjoying it? Or does he cut things off and destroy her? It seems helpless and hopeless, leading to the expression, "whatever I\'ve done, I\'ve been staring down the barrel of a gun"..
I believe that the singer is in a relationship and is aware of his selfishness, lust, flawed humanity, etc. and is doesn\'t believe he\'s capable of meeting the needs of his partner. This makes sense because he\'s describing his worst qualities and yet immediately switches to ask why his partner is so fond of and desiring of him.\n\nHe\'s also somewhat aware that his partner is enjoying being with him, which is actually eating at him even more ("are you having your fun? I never agreed to be your holy one"). He is at a loss at this trapped feeling. Is he supposed to continue pretending to be the one for her while he feels utterly incapable just because she is enjoying it? Or does he cut things off and destroy her? It seems helpless and hopeless, leading to the expression, "whatever I\'ve done, I\'ve been staring down the barrel of a gun"..