It\'s a song about two people who are both abusing substances. The guy whose perspective we get lets us know that he\'s using substance abuse as a way to avoid thinking about the person he\'s in love with who doesn\'t love him back. \n\nMy favorite line is "If I choose then I lose", meaning that if he has the opportunity to use substances, he will. Should he have to choose what to do, he\'ll choose being high every time. In doing that, he can temporarily avoid thinking about his heartbreak ("Distract my brain from the terrible news / It\'s not living if it\'s not with you").\n\n"It\'s not living if it\'s not with you" is an interesting lyric, especially considering how he talks about Danny as a bit pathetic, a lost cause, and a loser. It\'s like he\'s saying that his \'new life\' without this person with whom he\'s in unrequited love isn\'t even life, it\'s just some form of stupor or living death. "I feel sick and I know that I\'ll lose, but / It\'s not living if it\'s not with you", in other words he sees himself engaging in the same behaviors that make him look down on Danny, he knows if he keeps up the substance abuse he\'ll fail to achieve more in life than Danny, but he just doesn\'t care because life is just not worth living, and is too shitty to live through sober, without this person he loves. He knows that he\'ll lose.
It\'s a song about two people who are both abusing substances. The guy whose perspective we get lets us know that he\'s using substance abuse as a way to avoid thinking about the person he\'s in love with who doesn\'t love him back. \n\nMy favorite line is "If I choose then I lose", meaning that if he has the opportunity to use substances, he will. Should he have to choose what to do, he\'ll choose being high every time. In doing that, he can temporarily avoid thinking about his heartbreak ("Distract my brain from the terrible news / It\'s not living if it\'s not with you").\n\n"It\'s not living if it\'s not with you" is an interesting lyric, especially considering how he talks about Danny as a bit pathetic, a lost cause, and a loser. It\'s like he\'s saying that his \'new life\' without this person with whom he\'s in unrequited love isn\'t even life, it\'s just some form of stupor or living death. "I feel sick and I know that I\'ll lose, but / It\'s not living if it\'s not with you", in other words he sees himself engaging in the same behaviors that make him look down on Danny, he knows if he keeps up the substance abuse he\'ll fail to achieve more in life than Danny, but he just doesn\'t care because life is just not worth living, and is too shitty to live through sober, without this person he loves. He knows that he\'ll lose.