ive been coming to this site for years now but never made an account until today bc of this song. i personally think it\'s a fairly straightforward song when it comes to the meaning. that could be just bc, as EternalTearsOfSorrow has posted about the songwriter/drummer saying it was about, has been exactly what the last 2 years of my life has been like. \nits fucked how you get so used to dealing with the depressive intrusive thoughts for so long becomes a comfort zone. when youre the architect of your own self destruction for so long that it becomes the only form of control you know, life gets dark. you get hurt so many times by the people youve trusted the most & have put up with so much thinking it was love, that you start to shut everyone out. and anything that starts to even feel good or maybe bring a little happiness, feels so foreign to you & end up having absolutely no clue how to react. bc anytime you have been happy in the past, it\'s been a lie or it\'s been ripped away from you. so youd rather stay in the darkness bc it\'s comfortable... you know what to expect. and as friends and family are distancing themselves you keep pushing them away even more. and when youre in that dark place, you start doing everything to not have to look at yourself in the mirror. to tell yourself that your comfort zone that was ssupposed to protect you is what you have to change... that shit is not easy. and eventually (hopefully) there are moments that you cant run from it or deny it and yourself & that if you want better youre not going to be able to be on the bench of your life & you have to start being that active player in your wellbeing & happiness. \n\nand that was just a wordier version of the first comment but this song for the last year has been at the top of my playlists or on repeat. every line is just on point with my life and i may not have found the light just yet but ive finally am looking at myself in the mirror. i am so glad this song exists <3
ive been coming to this site for years now but never made an account until today bc of this song. i personally think it\'s a fairly straightforward song when it comes to the meaning. that could be just bc, as EternalTearsOfSorrow has posted about the songwriter/drummer saying it was about, has been exactly what the last 2 years of my life has been like. \nits fucked how you get so used to dealing with the depressive intrusive thoughts for so long becomes a comfort zone. when youre the architect of your own self destruction for so long that it becomes the only form of control you know, life gets dark. you get hurt so many times by the people youve trusted the most & have put up with so much thinking it was love, that you start to shut everyone out. and anything that starts to even feel good or maybe bring a little happiness, feels so foreign to you & end up having absolutely no clue how to react. bc anytime you have been happy in the past, it\'s been a lie or it\'s been ripped away from you. so youd rather stay in the darkness bc it\'s comfortable... you know what to expect. and as friends and family are distancing themselves you keep pushing them away even more. and when youre in that dark place, you start doing everything to not have to look at yourself in the mirror. to tell yourself that your comfort zone that was ssupposed to protect you is what you have to change... that shit is not easy. and eventually (hopefully) there are moments that you cant run from it or deny it and yourself & that if you want better youre not going to be able to be on the bench of your life & you have to start being that active player in your wellbeing & happiness. \n\nand that was just a wordier version of the first comment but this song for the last year has been at the top of my playlists or on repeat. every line is just on point with my life and i may not have found the light just yet but ive finally am looking at myself in the mirror. i am so glad this song exists <3