To me, this feels like how some people are damaged from their childhood
Even as a child knowing that there's something different or not quite "right" about you.
"I there is no going back
I can't stop feeling now"
Knowing that you can't change how things were and that you feel the way you do because of the memories and experiences
"I am not the same, growing up again"
I think this having the realisation that your childhood experiences weren't normal, and now you have to re-parent yourself as an adult, and learn things that were taught to most others without them by their own family/parents.
"I had to fantasize, mum and dad were queen and king"
"Just to survive, I was a famous artist and people took me seriously
Even those who understood me
I had to fantasize just to survive"
I feel like this is about dissociation and maladaptive coping mechanisms and/or daydreams you have to try and escape the reality that was your childhood and your life
Or maybe I'm relating this to my own experiences too much ????
To me, this feels like how some people are damaged from their childhood
Even as a child knowing that there's something different or not quite "right" about you.
"I there is no going back I can't stop feeling now" Knowing that you can't change how things were and that you feel the way you do because of the memories and experiences
"I am not the same, growing up again" I think this having the realisation that your childhood experiences weren't normal, and now you have to re-parent yourself as an adult, and learn things that were taught to most others without them by their own family/parents.
"I had to fantasize, mum and dad were queen and king" "Just to survive, I was a famous artist and people took me seriously Even those who understood me I had to fantasize just to survive" I feel like this is about dissociation and maladaptive coping mechanisms and/or daydreams you have to try and escape the reality that was your childhood and your life
Or maybe I'm relating this to my own experiences too much ????