Buried Alive

To me this song just screams depression...

"Take the time just to listen When the voices screaming are much too loud Take a look in the distance Try and see it all" Basically trying to get some perspective on your life when it's just so chaotic and overpowering/demanding you feel overwhelmed, trying to envision some future

"Chances are that you might find That we share a common discomfort now I feel I'm walking a fine line Tell me only if it's real" Basically that other people are likewise overwhelmed by the demanding world we live in, I think 'living a fine line' is kind of like feeling like you're on the edge of falling apart but just barely keeping it together. 'Tell me only if it's real' is the line I have the most trouble with, but I think it's maybe about seeking validation about the way you feel... like, when everyone else seems to be chugging along fine and you feel like you're not coping, and you just want someone to tell you that you're not weak for feeling that way and sometimes life /is/ too much, it /is/ demanding, and you're not crazy... don't tell me that I'm overreacting or just need some sleep, only say anything if it's that this is real

"Still I'm on my way (On and on it goes) Vacant hope to take" Carrying on through life despite feeling empty

"Hey, I can't live in here for another day Darkness has kept the light concealed Grim as ever" The moment when you feel like... that's it... you just can't take it anymore... if this is what you're life is, then what's the point? You just can't keep going on like this, you can't get yourself to go to work... you can barely get yourself out of bed

"Hold onto faith as I dig another grave Meanwhile the mice endure the wheel" Trying to hold on to believing in something or having a hope for the future despite burying your hopes and dreams, meanwhile other people endure continuing their lives despite going nowhere (like mice in a wheel)

"Real as ever And it seems I've been buried alive" Basically saying this feeling is real, and it's like you've been crushed and buried by the weight of the world to a point where you're physically alive but you feel like you're not living

"I walked the fields through the fire Taking steps until I found solid ground" I think this is implying that this isn't the first time this has happened... they've struggled on before until they felt they had a solid grip on their life again

"Followed dreams reaching higher Couldn't survive the fall" They once more tried to pursue their dreams, but found they went nowhere, and ending up crashing down again into the same spiral of depression

"Much has changed since the last time And I feel a little less certain now" Basically a lot has changed since their first depression spiral, but this time they feel less like they can pull themselves out of it... ending up back there again kind of makes you feel like... maybe I can never escape this? Maybe this is just what life is going to be like for me? It's like it's proof that you'll never be free of it

"You know I jumped at the first sign Tell me only if it's real" Now the jumping part's a bit tricky... I think it might be about kind of... surrendering to it? Like... once the first signs that they're back in that mental state start to appear they just lost hope and accelerate the process by self-destructive behaviour

"Memories seem to fade (On and on it goes) Wash my view away" Losing sight of all the times you treasured, just wanting to wash everything away until there's nothing

"And I'm chained like a slave Trapped in the dark Slammed all the locks Death calls my name And it seems I've been buried alive" Feeling trapped, isolating and closing yourself off from others, wanting to die

"Take you down now Burn it all out Throw you all around Get your fucking hands off me! What's it feel like? Took the wrong route Watch it fall apart Now you're knockin' at the wrong gate" I wondered for a while if this implied possible suicide, but I think it's more... beating yourself up for all your mistakes, all alone with your self-hate, feeling like you took the wrong direction in life and this is all your fault

"For you to pay the toll A price for you alone The only deal you'll find I'll gladly take your soul" Feeling like you deserve this, like maybe this is your punishment

"While it seems sick Sober up quick Psycho lunatic Crushing you with hands of fate Shame to find out when it's too late But you're all the same Trapped inside inferno awaits" I think the 'psycho lunatic' bit is kind of them insulting themselves, calling themselves crazy etc. and 'crushing you with hands of fate' is more about their self-destructive behaviour in the end leading them to this fate. Feeling like it's too late. Nothing good awaits them.

"Evil thoughts can hide I'll help release the mind I'll peel away the skin Release the dark within" I think this is more self-hatred, letting those thoughts get powerful, peeling away the mask of being fine

"This is now your life Strike you from the light This is now your life Die buried alive" Pretty much just saying 'this is your life now, there's no escape, die underneath the unbearable weight of it'

I really do love this song, and it's only grown on me over the years and through my own experiences... if you feel like things are too much, never lock yourself away, never give up even if it's not the first time, and know that it's not your fault and there will always be people who care.