I think that the singer has lost his girlfriend or wife - possibly in childbirth. And Kasper is their son, who he is now responsible for.
“Kasper, I love your mother
I can see her in your eyes
and I owe you what I owe her
or it'll burn me up inside”
He’s dealing with his sadness and grief, and has been feeling numb, but is starting to come out of it - but the depression could also suck him back down at a moment’s notice.
“ I think the sky is gonna clear
because the hills turn green as summer nears
but a lightening storm, a lightening storm
can even happen when the air is warm”
“And yet I hear that that nothing
calling out to me
I can feel that nothing reaching out to me“
It’s new being without her, but he’s been going on numbly.
“It's all so new, it's all so new
but my boots seem to know what to do
I know it's strange, it's very strange
It feels like something's been per-arranged“
He also doesn’t quite feel ready for the responsibility - but at least he’s starting to feel something again.
“Kasper, I'm a man now
though sometimes I feel like a kid
at least that I don't feel like nothing
the way that I once did.”
He’s not sure what to do, or where things are going - all the paths forward bend out of view, and he wonders if he’ll ever feel like he can breath, again; and if he’ll be able to keep going on.
“Looking down the avenues
but every little bend is out of view
Hold my breath and count to ten
see if I can ever take another again”
And the end is like the beginning:
“Is that a light
Is that a light
coming through
the gray and white?“
Is that light starting to break through the clouds? Is he actually starting to heal - or will another storm show up out of nowhere, and send him back to feeling nothing again?
I think that the singer has lost his girlfriend or wife - possibly in childbirth. And Kasper is their son, who he is now responsible for.
“Kasper, I love your mother I can see her in your eyes and I owe you what I owe her or it'll burn me up inside”
He’s dealing with his sadness and grief, and has been feeling numb, but is starting to come out of it - but the depression could also suck him back down at a moment’s notice.
“ I think the sky is gonna clear because the hills turn green as summer nears but a lightening storm, a lightening storm can even happen when the air is warm”
“And yet I hear that that nothing calling out to me I can feel that nothing reaching out to me“
It’s new being without her, but he’s been going on numbly.
“It's all so new, it's all so new but my boots seem to know what to do I know it's strange, it's very strange It feels like something's been per-arranged“
He also doesn’t quite feel ready for the responsibility - but at least he’s starting to feel something again.
“Kasper, I'm a man now though sometimes I feel like a kid at least that I don't feel like nothing the way that I once did.”
He’s not sure what to do, or where things are going - all the paths forward bend out of view, and he wonders if he’ll ever feel like he can breath, again; and if he’ll be able to keep going on.
“Looking down the avenues but every little bend is out of view Hold my breath and count to ten see if I can ever take another again”
And the end is like the beginning: “Is that a light Is that a light coming through the gray and white?“
Is that light starting to break through the clouds? Is he actually starting to heal - or will another storm show up out of nowhere, and send him back to feeling nothing again?