1st (Easy) Stanza
The narrator is spending time with their partner outside one evening. They're playing kid games, pretending to hide. The narrator mentions pretending twice, so they must be aware of their actions. Spending time together is enjoyable for both of them ("You say you like the dark and your hand in mine", "And “how long before this has to end?”").
2nd (Difficult) Stanza
Health related notes are mentioned twice ("I must be ill", "On self medication ambition fails"). Seems emotionally related.
Perhaps the awareness the narrator has during the evening is dampening the moments.
The narrator's emotions are assumed to be, at best, the simulations of love, which the narrator hasn't released before, and questions if the partner can release them
1st (Easy) Stanza The narrator is spending time with their partner outside one evening. They're playing kid games, pretending to hide. The narrator mentions pretending twice, so they must be aware of their actions. Spending time together is enjoyable for both of them ("You say you like the dark and your hand in mine", "And “how long before this has to end?”").
2nd (Difficult) Stanza Health related notes are mentioned twice ("I must be ill", "On self medication ambition fails"). Seems emotionally related.
Perhaps the awareness the narrator has during the evening is dampening the moments.
The narrator's emotions are assumed to be, at best, the simulations of love, which the narrator hasn't released before, and questions if the partner can release them