Solway Firth

The way i can relate to this song is through anxiety and depression. I can only explain my associations through quotings.

"Today, up on this hill I'm counting all the killers They sway as they swarm A look of gluttons in their eyes They mutter as the body loses warmth They pick your bones like locks inside a tomb And take great care to not take care of you"

• It is about all the anxiety, and the depression factors that are tearing you apart

"While I was learning to live we all were living a lie I guess you got what you wanted So I will settle for a slaughterhouse soaked in blood and betrayal It's always somebody else somebody else was me You want the real smile? Or the one I used to practice not to feel like a failure?"

• While I was trying to recover, find solutions, become happier, I couldn't achieve it and that person was not me. I had no personality. So basically: "While I was learning to live" and "It's always somebody else, somebody else was me", "we all were living a lie" are translated as: While i was trying to be happier and while i was suffocating in my mental pain i was both times lying to myself and due to them I lost my personality, i became a nobody. "So I will settle for a slaughterhouse soaked in blood and betrayal" I don't care anymore i will just kill myself, i settle for death and a lost hope in life and in happiness

"I don't need you to do it for me I don't need you to understand I don't need you to hide it from me I just want to feel like any other man I won't show you the whole story I won't show you the aftermath I won't show you my allegory Don't look away"

• "I don't ..." parts: He is griefing in pain, he doesn't need the depression to help him commit suicide, he will do it himself, he knows his situation, he just can't cope with it anymore. He just wants to be a simple man nothing more. "I won't ..." parts: He is tired of explaining his problems to other people, he won't accept any help, because nothing can help him and he KNOWS it. "Don't look away": do it already, that is kill yourself

"I'm not ahead of my time I just drew the first breath If I'm alive tomorrow I will alleviate the pressure by cutting you out of me I found my bottom line dead on the front lines I know I'll never go home So set fire to your ships and past regrets and be free"

• Every day is a new day of suffering and if he is able to overcome the mental pain for just a moment he will "alleviate the pressure" but he knows it will come back, so throw away all your past good memories because they are nothing anymore compared to the future and set yourself free

"While I was learning to live You taught me how to die I guess I got what I wanted Another needle in the back through purified scarification It wasn't somebody else You fucking did it to me You want a real smile? I haven't smiled in years"

• As he was trying to relearn to become happy again, happy as a child, he just got dragged further down in life. In the end, he stopped fighting and accepted his new personality, this 'darkness', and this is what he can associate his personality to now, so he knows who he is now and the only real smile is the one before ending his life.