I'm not certain if this was Julia's intention, but her words remind me of an unhealthy relationship that I was in at one point in my life.
"My eyes open, standing watch for hours
Wearing your favorite thing"
He always wanted me (demanded me) to wear certain items of clothing, and "my eyes open, standing watch for hours" reminds me of the constant vigilance that I had to maintain in order to ensure that he was always placated.
"Show me how you make your second face"
This line reminds me of his duplicity... One moment, he idolized me, and the next, he was unsatisfied or enraged with me. Additionally, whenever we were arguing, he made the appearance of being calm and collected in public, but would be angry and belittling the moment we were alone. In Julia's words, I can see her asking the subject of her lyric to show her (his/her) inner self, the "second face" hidden from the public.
"What did I do to make you feel so bad?
What did I do that you would make me feel so bad?"
Fairly self-explanatory I think, but for me personally, it reminds me of all the times that he would manipulate me with the "silent treatment", leaving me to wonder what I did to "make" him feel so upset. After years away from him though, I now know that people are in charge of their own emotions, and that nothing I could have done would have been able to satisfy him ultimately.
Trigger warning
I'm not certain if this was Julia's intention, but her words remind me of an unhealthy relationship that I was in at one point in my life.
"My eyes open, standing watch for hours Wearing your favorite thing"
He always wanted me (demanded me) to wear certain items of clothing, and "my eyes open, standing watch for hours" reminds me of the constant vigilance that I had to maintain in order to ensure that he was always placated.
"Show me how you make your second face"
This line reminds me of his duplicity... One moment, he idolized me, and the next, he was unsatisfied or enraged with me. Additionally, whenever we were arguing, he made the appearance of being calm and collected in public, but would be angry and belittling the moment we were alone. In Julia's words, I can see her asking the subject of her lyric to show her (his/her) inner self, the "second face" hidden from the public.
"What did I do to make you feel so bad? What did I do that you would make me feel so bad?"
Fairly self-explanatory I think, but for me personally, it reminds me of all the times that he would manipulate me with the "silent treatment", leaving me to wonder what I did to "make" him feel so upset. After years away from him though, I now know that people are in charge of their own emotions, and that nothing I could have done would have been able to satisfy him ultimately.
Thank you for the lyric, Julia.