For me this song vividly describes trying to let go of the past, wrestling with your demons, trying to start fresh, but just feeling like you can’t untangle yourself from it all. And at the end of the day you feel frigid, like the weight of reality and what you’re carrying has depleted the bright-eyed and bushy-tailed outlook you had on life in your youth. While the speaker seems to be caught up in emotion (drowning in my own disease) - I can say that eventually, you revisit something so many times, and give it time, that you will gain perspective- perspective you never considered before or couldn’t see when emotion clouded your mind, or that you needed to grow a little in order to recognize.
For me this song vividly describes trying to let go of the past, wrestling with your demons, trying to start fresh, but just feeling like you can’t untangle yourself from it all. And at the end of the day you feel frigid, like the weight of reality and what you’re carrying has depleted the bright-eyed and bushy-tailed outlook you had on life in your youth. While the speaker seems to be caught up in emotion (drowning in my own disease) - I can say that eventually, you revisit something so many times, and give it time, that you will gain perspective- perspective you never considered before or couldn’t see when emotion clouded your mind, or that you needed to grow a little in order to recognize.