For some people, long distance relationships work out really well--messages you send to each other become meaningful, you both do your own things on your own time, you both are able to give attention to friends and family without jeopardizing much time with each other, and the times you actually do get to spend together feels like it's worth so much more.
On the other hand, a long distance relationship may not work so well for others. It can make you feel lonely at times, wonder if the other person is being honest about what they say they are doing, make you crave physical affection, and so many more emotion provoking feelings and actions.
There's ups and downs, and I like to keep in mind that every relationship is different. For me, this song reminds me of times I have experienced in a long distance relationship.
~I keep reaching
But you're not reaching back
You're not reaching back~
Have you ever messaged your significant other and it took them multiple hours to respond? Sometimes it's like that because maybe they get busy or stuff comes up, but, at least, they tell you about it after it's all over. I remember a time when the most I would receive from him was one message a day over a span of a few weeks, hours after sending one message. I didn't want to spam his inbox because I understood that maybe he was busy, but after a while I noticed that he wasn't telling me anything about the things going on in his life that were preventing him from timely responding.
~Trying to get in, fight you through the cracks
Trying to get in, fought you through the cracks~
I didn't want to sound nosy, but I started to compose messages in ways that would help me understand what he was doing and how he was feeling and also signal to him the discomfort I was feeling.
And then he told me. And I stopped prying. I suddenly felt the real distance of all of those miles.
~I guess I'm trying to say
It hurts to feel this far
Million miles away
Next to me, next to me you are
Well if you're sitting right here
Why are we worlds apart?~
Let me rewind a bit. All this time, everything leading up to that day, I felt that I was waltzing along with him in a bright, wonderful, endearing relationship. We had spent countless hours talking over the phone, sharing details of our lives--I have to admit, when my eyes were closed it really was as if he were right next to me, and on his own he told me that he has experienced the same thing. But what made him want to forgo all that we had?
~If you're so near
then why do you feel this far?
Why are we worlds apart?~
In the sanctuary of my closet, shower sessions, the darkness of the night into my pillow, anywhere I could fully express my feelings from the stab of his words, I pleaded in my head to him. What did I do wrong? Why am I suddenly a lower priority? What about all of those things you said before? Please tell me, please just please. When things got quiet I really only wanted to hear from you.
~Oh, we're not that different you know
I play among the stars and then fall so low
I try to make sense as I go~
The worst part was that he couldn't see the state I was in or my actions to understand how I felt. I felt like I was reduced down to a monotone line of generic text. He couldn't physically comfort me, and that was what we both desperately wanted. I tried my best, but the distance seemed to have bested me.
~'Cause nothing is in your soul~
At the end of the day, you still come back to a quiet home, everything exactly how it was left, no lights on, and a cold bed. When you're by yourself so far away, you get a lonely, hollow, very empty feeling, satisfied only by human interaction and it's powerful. You look to fill it, and as you do, you realize what you're doing.
He felt wrong for what he did. I don't know if his doings made him feel worse than what he felt feeling lonely, but I think he feels more guilt than anything.
I can't completely forgive him for something I could not control, and I won't let him forget, but my heart can harden a little and I can move on with the relationship that I am not willing to put down.
For some people, long distance relationships work out really well--messages you send to each other become meaningful, you both do your own things on your own time, you both are able to give attention to friends and family without jeopardizing much time with each other, and the times you actually do get to spend together feels like it's worth so much more. On the other hand, a long distance relationship may not work so well for others. It can make you feel lonely at times, wonder if the other person is being honest about what they say they are doing, make you crave physical affection, and so many more emotion provoking feelings and actions. There's ups and downs, and I like to keep in mind that every relationship is different. For me, this song reminds me of times I have experienced in a long distance relationship.
~I keep reaching But you're not reaching back You're not reaching back~ Have you ever messaged your significant other and it took them multiple hours to respond? Sometimes it's like that because maybe they get busy or stuff comes up, but, at least, they tell you about it after it's all over. I remember a time when the most I would receive from him was one message a day over a span of a few weeks, hours after sending one message. I didn't want to spam his inbox because I understood that maybe he was busy, but after a while I noticed that he wasn't telling me anything about the things going on in his life that were preventing him from timely responding.
~Trying to get in, fight you through the cracks Trying to get in, fought you through the cracks~ I didn't want to sound nosy, but I started to compose messages in ways that would help me understand what he was doing and how he was feeling and also signal to him the discomfort I was feeling. And then he told me. And I stopped prying. I suddenly felt the real distance of all of those miles.
~I guess I'm trying to say It hurts to feel this far Million miles away Next to me, next to me you are Well if you're sitting right here Why are we worlds apart?~ Let me rewind a bit. All this time, everything leading up to that day, I felt that I was waltzing along with him in a bright, wonderful, endearing relationship. We had spent countless hours talking over the phone, sharing details of our lives--I have to admit, when my eyes were closed it really was as if he were right next to me, and on his own he told me that he has experienced the same thing. But what made him want to forgo all that we had?
~If you're so near then why do you feel this far? Why are we worlds apart?~ In the sanctuary of my closet, shower sessions, the darkness of the night into my pillow, anywhere I could fully express my feelings from the stab of his words, I pleaded in my head to him. What did I do wrong? Why am I suddenly a lower priority? What about all of those things you said before? Please tell me, please just please. When things got quiet I really only wanted to hear from you.
~Oh, we're not that different you know I play among the stars and then fall so low I try to make sense as I go~ The worst part was that he couldn't see the state I was in or my actions to understand how I felt. I felt like I was reduced down to a monotone line of generic text. He couldn't physically comfort me, and that was what we both desperately wanted. I tried my best, but the distance seemed to have bested me.
~'Cause nothing is in your soul~ At the end of the day, you still come back to a quiet home, everything exactly how it was left, no lights on, and a cold bed. When you're by yourself so far away, you get a lonely, hollow, very empty feeling, satisfied only by human interaction and it's powerful. You look to fill it, and as you do, you realize what you're doing. He felt wrong for what he did. I don't know if his doings made him feel worse than what he felt feeling lonely, but I think he feels more guilt than anything. I can't completely forgive him for something I could not control, and I won't let him forget, but my heart can harden a little and I can move on with the relationship that I am not willing to put down.