At first I thought it was about drug addiction but the lyrics also could be seen by the sex abuse side, but after hearing "Dirty" lot of times in the last six months, and the most important, after 21 months of addiction into crystal meth, this is my interpretation:
"Keep knocking. No one's there. Pouring down. Near be felt."
When desperately you´re trying to buy more drug at your dealer's house despite you know for sure that he's not in home. Then you begin to get down and down because the things aren´t being result as you wish.
"I'm out here by myself all alone."
I think this is probably connected to the previous sentence: "near be felt". Because he´s feeling like nobody knows about his problem and never will. Even if somebody may know, he or she wouldn't care, so he's alone.
"Ready to blow my head off. I hurt so bad inside. I wish you could see the world through my eyes. Each day is the same. I just wanna laugh again."
This five sentences are the most literally words to me but also the most significant and saddest. The first twelve months my meth use was fine, actually it was delightful, neither physical deseases nor mental illnesses but before you see it coming you're filling that emotional gap using drug so it really hurts so bad inside and the only thing you do day after day is to repeat exactly the acts so each day is really the same, and you want to enjoy and laugh by the effects of meth just as it was in the beginnig even though it's a guarantee you won't. It has been a while since the last time you had a good time using.
"Keep hoping. Nothing to spare. So my life. Isn't quite there."
Only if your money gets lost, an accident happens to you or, more probably, you obtain the drug, you will be waiting and hoping inside because there is no other option you can do or want to do.
"Feel like a whore. A dirty whore. Such a whore. Dirty."
When you recognize your problem on drug abuse and the lack of will power has been reduced to almost zero you feel too much shame on yourself every time you're using or every time you're connecting drug. You feel sick, worthless and in concrete: dirty.
"I'll take it. I'll take It. I will take it. Give it to me."
The relevant moment inside you it's when there is a strong struggle with your thoughts and feelings. Trying not to go out and buy, trying not to fall back onto. But after a few times, that inner struggle decreases and becomes shorter in time. So that shoutings ("I will take it") summarize ten hours you passed thinking that it's for sure you'll quit that drug within five seconds you let doubt come in, and even you think you won't collapse, deep inside you smile at the certainty that you really want to consume so you simply will. It happens maybe in less seconds and sounds weird but an addiction is more than weird.
"You dirty little fuck. Dirty little fuck. You dirty little fuck. Dirty little fuck.
(I will take it). (I will take it). (I will take it). (I will take it)."
A couple of times, hearing this song in my room, I've cried while I'm shouting that lines in the song. To me it's easy understand that Johnny is punishing his weakness, yelling and scolding himself after he felt the same hurt inside because of the decision that he would take it. That couples of times, I was yelling and scolding myself too.
I ignore if Johnny has or had any addiction and I don´t guarantee this song meaning is what Johnny really wanted to say, but I felt identified with the lyrics every time and I know surely that addiction may center not just in drugs but also in food, sex or whatever that spontaneusly will fill your emotional emptiness, 'cause in all cases addictions are psychological, not physical.
At first I thought it was about drug addiction but the lyrics also could be seen by the sex abuse side, but after hearing "Dirty" lot of times in the last six months, and the most important, after 21 months of addiction into crystal meth, this is my interpretation:
"Keep knocking. No one's there. Pouring down. Near be felt."
When desperately you´re trying to buy more drug at your dealer's house despite you know for sure that he's not in home. Then you begin to get down and down because the things aren´t being result as you wish.
"I'm out here by myself all alone."
I think this is probably connected to the previous sentence: "near be felt". Because he´s feeling like nobody knows about his problem and never will. Even if somebody may know, he or she wouldn't care, so he's alone.
"Ready to blow my head off. I hurt so bad inside. I wish you could see the world through my eyes. Each day is the same. I just wanna laugh again."
This five sentences are the most literally words to me but also the most significant and saddest. The first twelve months my meth use was fine, actually it was delightful, neither physical deseases nor mental illnesses but before you see it coming you're filling that emotional gap using drug so it really hurts so bad inside and the only thing you do day after day is to repeat exactly the acts so each day is really the same, and you want to enjoy and laugh by the effects of meth just as it was in the beginnig even though it's a guarantee you won't. It has been a while since the last time you had a good time using.
"Keep hoping. Nothing to spare. So my life. Isn't quite there."
Only if your money gets lost, an accident happens to you or, more probably, you obtain the drug, you will be waiting and hoping inside because there is no other option you can do or want to do.
"Feel like a whore. A dirty whore. Such a whore. Dirty."
When you recognize your problem on drug abuse and the lack of will power has been reduced to almost zero you feel too much shame on yourself every time you're using or every time you're connecting drug. You feel sick, worthless and in concrete: dirty.
"I'll take it. I'll take It. I will take it. Give it to me." The relevant moment inside you it's when there is a strong struggle with your thoughts and feelings. Trying not to go out and buy, trying not to fall back onto. But after a few times, that inner struggle decreases and becomes shorter in time. So that shoutings ("I will take it") summarize ten hours you passed thinking that it's for sure you'll quit that drug within five seconds you let doubt come in, and even you think you won't collapse, deep inside you smile at the certainty that you really want to consume so you simply will. It happens maybe in less seconds and sounds weird but an addiction is more than weird.
"You dirty little fuck. Dirty little fuck. You dirty little fuck. Dirty little fuck. (I will take it). (I will take it). (I will take it). (I will take it)."
A couple of times, hearing this song in my room, I've cried while I'm shouting that lines in the song. To me it's easy understand that Johnny is punishing his weakness, yelling and scolding himself after he felt the same hurt inside because of the decision that he would take it. That couples of times, I was yelling and scolding myself too.
I ignore if Johnny has or had any addiction and I don´t guarantee this song meaning is what Johnny really wanted to say, but I felt identified with the lyrics every time and I know surely that addiction may center not just in drugs but also in food, sex or whatever that spontaneusly will fill your emotional emptiness, 'cause in all cases addictions are psychological, not physical.