It is definitely a reflection on a close friend's death, could be suicide or risky behavior or an accident, and the emptiness that follows, thinking: This isn't how it was supposed to be. I feel lucky to have been exposed to this band by sheer accident, I worked at the indy label that put out their first EP which was AMAZING, and meeting them was struck by what great guys they are, and so I took interest in their later releases. This is how I came to know and love this tune.
But let me tell you about my personal connection to this song-- A few years before this came out, I lost a very close friend in the kind of dumb accident that happens when really drunk messed up people stop using their brains. It was so pointless how he died; we all felt he was a young (22) vibrant, talented person intended for so much more.
When this album came out I was almost paralyzed with how closely this song mapped to the things I still struggled with around my friend's death. HOw could this happen? This wasnt how it was supposed to be. We were supposed to do all these things in life, you were supposed to be great somehow, and if death came it would be glorious- burning out in a ball of flame that left its mark on the world-- not dumb and stupid like it happened.
And the bit about the funeral gives me chills, it was so dead-on-- seeing a bunch of friends you hadnt seen since high school, feeling like you wanted to be happy at a kind of reunion but then thinking, oh yeah, we're hear because our friend fell out of a 6th story window because he was tripping on acid. At the funeral I remember being struck by his dad, pale and stunned-- "frozen between anger and fear"-- and his mom's gray hair... I always felt that the songwriter may have channeled that experience for me and every time I hear it I am brought back to that experience from my early 20s.
It is definitely a reflection on a close friend's death, could be suicide or risky behavior or an accident, and the emptiness that follows, thinking: This isn't how it was supposed to be. I feel lucky to have been exposed to this band by sheer accident, I worked at the indy label that put out their first EP which was AMAZING, and meeting them was struck by what great guys they are, and so I took interest in their later releases. This is how I came to know and love this tune.
But let me tell you about my personal connection to this song-- A few years before this came out, I lost a very close friend in the kind of dumb accident that happens when really drunk messed up people stop using their brains. It was so pointless how he died; we all felt he was a young (22) vibrant, talented person intended for so much more.
When this album came out I was almost paralyzed with how closely this song mapped to the things I still struggled with around my friend's death. HOw could this happen? This wasnt how it was supposed to be. We were supposed to do all these things in life, you were supposed to be great somehow, and if death came it would be glorious- burning out in a ball of flame that left its mark on the world-- not dumb and stupid like it happened.
And the bit about the funeral gives me chills, it was so dead-on-- seeing a bunch of friends you hadnt seen since high school, feeling like you wanted to be happy at a kind of reunion but then thinking, oh yeah, we're hear because our friend fell out of a 6th story window because he was tripping on acid. At the funeral I remember being struck by his dad, pale and stunned-- "frozen between anger and fear"-- and his mom's gray hair... I always felt that the songwriter may have channeled that experience for me and every time I hear it I am brought back to that experience from my early 20s.
Sorry lots of typos here including getting part of the lyric wrong "anger and tears" not "anger and fear".
Sorry lots of typos here including getting part of the lyric wrong "anger and tears" not "anger and fear".
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