It’s the second verse that always gets me- ‘You could have done anything...’ etc. Usually before large family gatherings I listen to this song, sob for a while, take a Xanax, and go show up wherever I’m expected. A lot of people told me for a long time how talented I am/was. I invested a lot of time, money, and energy toward that, and for nothing. I feel bitter and angry, and the flipside of that coin is sadness and despair. Treatment-resistant chronic depression. I attacked it aggressively for years and years. Now my memory is fried from meds and electroshock and I’m still in the same place. I could have done anything. Yeah... but the thing I couldn’t do was die. Suicide completion failure is such a hopeless thing. You think ‘I couldn’t even do that right.’ Everyone thinks I’m lucky- in many ways I am- but the thoughts that haunt me relentlessly every day make me want just one thing. To be forgiven.
@Supersonic67 Definitely a song about regret and a sense of lost or wasted opportunity. I always loved this song but only just looked at the lyrics properly. lol.
@Supersonic67 Definitely a song about regret and a sense of lost or wasted opportunity. I always loved this song but only just looked at the lyrics properly. lol.
It’s the second verse that always gets me- ‘You could have done anything...’ etc. Usually before large family gatherings I listen to this song, sob for a while, take a Xanax, and go show up wherever I’m expected. A lot of people told me for a long time how talented I am/was. I invested a lot of time, money, and energy toward that, and for nothing. I feel bitter and angry, and the flipside of that coin is sadness and despair. Treatment-resistant chronic depression. I attacked it aggressively for years and years. Now my memory is fried from meds and electroshock and I’m still in the same place. I could have done anything. Yeah... but the thing I couldn’t do was die. Suicide completion failure is such a hopeless thing. You think ‘I couldn’t even do that right.’ Everyone thinks I’m lucky- in many ways I am- but the thoughts that haunt me relentlessly every day make me want just one thing. To be forgiven.
@Supersonic67 Definitely a song about regret and a sense of lost or wasted opportunity. I always loved this song but only just looked at the lyrics properly. lol.
@Supersonic67 Definitely a song about regret and a sense of lost or wasted opportunity. I always loved this song but only just looked at the lyrics properly. lol.
@Supersonic67 Jesus, this is so sad. Wondering how you are doing now? And whose forgiveness do you need?
@Supersonic67 Jesus, this is so sad. Wondering how you are doing now? And whose forgiveness do you need?