The Package

The first track on Thirteenth Step, with 12 tracks total, its about 12 step programs.

Step one: Addmitting you're an addict.

The package is the 12 step program itself. The first step: Admitting Powerlessness over your addiction.

Having been through this, 12 step is a group of people who pretend to care, pretend to listen. They all give you contacts got everyone when you take your first step. The program wants all of your personal will and power, just like a drug The people who have been going for years, they are massively addicted to it. You'll see them get high as fuck at the meetings. Everyone gets an opportunity to share. This means you can let some things out. For an addict lying, cheating, bumbing and stealing are simply how you aquire most any resource. Most hard drugs will not only take the focus as the regular primary goal, but your motivation to take care of almost anything else in life evaporates. You'll still care and as you lose everything and everyone's faith and trust in you disappears as they suffer over your slef destruction and finally lose the last of those holding on to you over your negative affect in their lives and your left with nothing but other addicts who want only to use you, you're not only left alone with nothing, you're reputation is accurate and well known. It is a shame and guilt. It's something you hide. You look like an addict, like someone to stay away from. Regular people, you'll not like being around at all anymore.

Well, here comes 12 step and everyone's disinngenuine sympathy, which you've not had in a long time, quite the opposite. Other addicts tell all like there is no shame. They can finally express their guilt and regret. It's your turn to share. You want that badly missed attention intensely, your floodgates open and the sensation of letting out so many pent up thoughts and feelings and experiences is euphoric, a euphoria without a crash or comedown. They go every night, some go to as many a day as possible, one girl said 7 was her record, with guidiness. So, the same cycle of dopamine addiction is continued. Your withdrawal symptoms ease. Coffee is served freely for the stimulant and tobacco culture is accepted and prevalent just for that hook. Everyone hangs out in the parlking lot afterwords smoke and chatting, like after a night of drinking. Its a new social group of addicts who just want to use you...and Im sure almost all of them cheat the program and still use in whatever way.

So, its really just them getting you rehooked on their shit. 12 steps...all set out. All concisely stated. Each with a specific purpose to either hook you or sale the program, so everything looks ok on the outside. So, it is not only wrapped up in a nice like package in the, its all inside and purposeful and it's wrapped up. It's covered.

The package, equating to a score of drugs being a package. Even the phalis aspect of the word. Being dominated or controlled, raped, even seduced or overwhelmed by our desire.

So, this song very specifically explains what being in 12 step is like. I would do line by line, but I hope this sold my case :-)