I listened to this song and immediately I thought about my own struggle with mental illness - and in particular, anxiety and OCD. The line that always strikes me is, "When I break pattern, I break ground / I rebuild when I break down" because, as someone with an anxiety disorder, I have to constantly be fighting my own brain. I have to constantly break the "pattern" I've developed to keep myself from panicking or else I fall back - so, "I break ground" when I manage to break out. I also "rebuild when I break down," because with mental illness, that's going to happen. I crash and burn and have to pick myself up again because that's just what I have to do.
The part that makes me thing of OCD in particular is the line that says, "Still I'm pinned under the weight / Of what I believed would keep me safe." Some people with OCD perform compulsions because we feel like something bad will happen if we don't - we are, quite literally, "pinned under the weight" of the things we believe will "keep us safe."
This is just an interpretation I've thought up, and it's a really personal one to me. I think you could also intemperate this song as talking about grief. The great thing about songs is that you can listen to them and take your own meaning.
@Caryn this makes so much sense!! I have OCD as well, and this song really spoke to me for different reasons but I can totally see what you are saying. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. If you ever want someone to talk to for support, reAch out to me on insta @marielrieland!
@Caryn this makes so much sense!! I have OCD as well, and this song really spoke to me for different reasons but I can totally see what you are saying. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. If you ever want someone to talk to for support, reAch out to me on insta @marielrieland!
I listened to this song and immediately I thought about my own struggle with mental illness - and in particular, anxiety and OCD. The line that always strikes me is, "When I break pattern, I break ground / I rebuild when I break down" because, as someone with an anxiety disorder, I have to constantly be fighting my own brain. I have to constantly break the "pattern" I've developed to keep myself from panicking or else I fall back - so, "I break ground" when I manage to break out. I also "rebuild when I break down," because with mental illness, that's going to happen. I crash and burn and have to pick myself up again because that's just what I have to do.
The part that makes me thing of OCD in particular is the line that says, "Still I'm pinned under the weight / Of what I believed would keep me safe." Some people with OCD perform compulsions because we feel like something bad will happen if we don't - we are, quite literally, "pinned under the weight" of the things we believe will "keep us safe."
This is just an interpretation I've thought up, and it's a really personal one to me. I think you could also intemperate this song as talking about grief. The great thing about songs is that you can listen to them and take your own meaning.
@Caryn this makes so much sense!! I have OCD as well, and this song really spoke to me for different reasons but I can totally see what you are saying. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. If you ever want someone to talk to for support, reAch out to me on insta @marielrieland!
@Caryn this makes so much sense!! I have OCD as well, and this song really spoke to me for different reasons but I can totally see what you are saying. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. If you ever want someone to talk to for support, reAch out to me on insta @marielrieland!