I think it's about a sort of depression where you want what you don't have or what you lost, perhaps he lost who he was or what he used to be and he is romanticizing that:
Grass grows greener
On the other side
Corn grows sweeter
On the other side
and whatever he has or is becoming isn't what he wants at all--it may even be the opposite. He feels sort of trapped by it, like it is perhaps even preventing him from getting what he wants and turning him into someone who could either never achieve it or get it back:
And I watch, And I watch, And I watch
And I see too much
And I broke my face
And my head grows too much
and not having the things he wants makes him feel empty inside and like God doesn't like him and hurts him on purpose:
God spits
On my soul
There's something dead inside my hole
In my hole
In my hole
In my hole
It feels like he is losing himself in this lack of definition perhaps caused by realizing he won't get what he wants in life and trying to come to terms with that and now trying to find a new goal and identity:
I step crueler
But less defined
Striped cats cooler
But so is mine
And I want to see
What I want to be
he seems himself on the tv pretending to be what he doesn't want to be and it's taking over how he behaves and acts, his identity and desires are being manipulated by his public image of himself and he's losing his previous self and what he had needed/wanted to feel fulfilled in the process and he is starting to find something in he is starting to enjoy, it's not much though as the next lines signify:
And I see me on a touching screen
And I'm dancing to a scream
What little he has gained to help fill that void and loss of identity-not matter how small or worthless it seems to others or him-is now cherished by him as the only thing that currently defines him or give him any since of purpose/identity; It's all he has:
How can something crawl within
My rubber holy baked bean tin
It's god to me, it's god to me
It is heart and soul
I think it's about a sort of depression where you want what you don't have or what you lost, perhaps he lost who he was or what he used to be and he is romanticizing that: Grass grows greener On the other side Corn grows sweeter On the other side
and whatever he has or is becoming isn't what he wants at all--it may even be the opposite. He feels sort of trapped by it, like it is perhaps even preventing him from getting what he wants and turning him into someone who could either never achieve it or get it back: And I watch, And I watch, And I watch And I see too much And I broke my face And my head grows too much
and not having the things he wants makes him feel empty inside and like God doesn't like him and hurts him on purpose: God spits On my soul There's something dead inside my hole In my hole In my hole In my hole
It feels like he is losing himself in this lack of definition perhaps caused by realizing he won't get what he wants in life and trying to come to terms with that and now trying to find a new goal and identity: I step crueler But less defined Striped cats cooler But so is mine And I want to see What I want to be
he seems himself on the tv pretending to be what he doesn't want to be and it's taking over how he behaves and acts, his identity and desires are being manipulated by his public image of himself and he's losing his previous self and what he had needed/wanted to feel fulfilled in the process and he is starting to find something in he is starting to enjoy, it's not much though as the next lines signify: And I see me on a touching screen And I'm dancing to a scream
What little he has gained to help fill that void and loss of identity-not matter how small or worthless it seems to others or him-is now cherished by him as the only thing that currently defines him or give him any since of purpose/identity; It's all he has: How can something crawl within My rubber holy baked bean tin It's god to me, it's god to me It is heart and soul