"I can feel the walls closing in
and I don’t want to talk anymore"
Here she sings of shutting down.
"Wish I could quietly slip away
and leave you here with no void.
The only reason I stay is to care for you"
She wants to liberate and free herself from her suffering by committing suicide, but she avoids doing so since she feels compelled to nurture those close to her. She realizes that killing herself and leaving her loved ones who need her behind would only serve to worsen their state.
"Everything else in me has atrophied
and I am cold and painless now
I want to live but i feel nothing
when can I die, when can I go"
Again, she's so numb and depressed that she wants to kill herself.
tl;dr: The song is about wanting to off yourself, but not attempting since you feel bound to care for your loved ones and know that killing yourself will break their hearts and aggravate their issues.
"I can feel the walls closing in and I don’t want to talk anymore" Here she sings of shutting down.
"Wish I could quietly slip away and leave you here with no void. The only reason I stay is to care for you" She wants to liberate and free herself from her suffering by committing suicide, but she avoids doing so since she feels compelled to nurture those close to her. She realizes that killing herself and leaving her loved ones who need her behind would only serve to worsen their state.
"Everything else in me has atrophied and I am cold and painless now I want to live but i feel nothing when can I die, when can I go" Again, she's so numb and depressed that she wants to kill herself.
tl;dr: The song is about wanting to off yourself, but not attempting since you feel bound to care for your loved ones and know that killing yourself will break their hearts and aggravate their issues.