The narrator is spending the night waiting to find out whether someone he cares about will survive. She's in the hospital not because of an accident, but because of something she's done. Maybe she attempted suicide, maybe she just hurt herself, maybe she had a heart attack due to an eating disorder or overdosed. The narrator's obviously anxious, and he wants her to get better, but at the same time he's angry and resents in equal measure that he can't do enough and that he's being asked to do too much. Although he isn't culpable for the woman's actions, he still feels responsible and thinks he could've prevented it if he'd been better somehow, if he'd been more available or more insistent that she get help (Something I said/Something I did/Is bringing on this violent emergency). However, this isn't the first time something like this has happened (One more day/I'm always taking the dive), and while he's doing his best to be patient, he's preoccupied, he hasn't slept well the past few nights, and he's angry that she's put him in this situation again. He wants to help, but he also feels like she's asking too much of him by making him watch her suffer and wonder whether she'll survive over and over (All it takes/Is all I can give/All my waking hours). Although he's frightened and he feels wronged, he's not willing to give up on her yet -- partially because he feels a sense of duty towards her, and partially because he honestly loves her.
The narrator is spending the night waiting to find out whether someone he cares about will survive. She's in the hospital not because of an accident, but because of something she's done. Maybe she attempted suicide, maybe she just hurt herself, maybe she had a heart attack due to an eating disorder or overdosed. The narrator's obviously anxious, and he wants her to get better, but at the same time he's angry and resents in equal measure that he can't do enough and that he's being asked to do too much. Although he isn't culpable for the woman's actions, he still feels responsible and thinks he could've prevented it if he'd been better somehow, if he'd been more available or more insistent that she get help (Something I said/Something I did/Is bringing on this violent emergency). However, this isn't the first time something like this has happened (One more day/I'm always taking the dive), and while he's doing his best to be patient, he's preoccupied, he hasn't slept well the past few nights, and he's angry that she's put him in this situation again. He wants to help, but he also feels like she's asking too much of him by making him watch her suffer and wonder whether she'll survive over and over (All it takes/Is all I can give/All my waking hours). Although he's frightened and he feels wronged, he's not willing to give up on her yet -- partially because he feels a sense of duty towards her, and partially because he honestly loves her.