So I was doing a ukulele/vocal cover of this song earlier, and so naturally paying more attention to the chords than usual and it hit me what this song might possibly mean, and it caused me to cry enough that it broke my tough as monsters eyeliner into streaking down my cheeks. (I am a guy btw)
I know that Tyler has anxiety issues, as do I. While it's different for everyone and I can only speak for myself, I know that I personally find it difficult to breathe when I have an attack or feel one coming. So I believe that the first line may be a metaphor referring to this difficulty to breathe.
The second line builds on this, adding reason to why he would be having an attack. He's getting into the car and starting it for some reason. I assume that whatever the reason is (I am still analyzing this part) that that is what's causing the anxiety.
In general I think that the song has to do with suicide. The self titled album heavily discusses this topic so it's entirely within the realm of the possibility to assume that this is one of those. For example, the phrase "I wanna crack the door so I can just fall out" seems to be alluding to suicide, although I could be wrong. Even though the next line, it seems as though he might be referring to a reason that he will not kill himself; someone has given him their heart and he doesn't want to hurt that person
The song continues until there is the demon brought into the picture, that sneaks into the girls house after Tyler is gone. This could be symbolic of like me, a depressed person, for example, being alright when I'm with someone but once their gone, it's like the shields have quit working and all defences are down.
So the demon stays there for the night and we can probably assume that he's more or less some form of a mental illness like depression or the like.
When Tyler begins his interaction with the demon, "then I felt chills in my bones...Please just send them all my way" assumably,, he is helping the girl, or trying to, with what it is that she is struggling with. He realises though, once he sees and understands his problems that until he faces his own he's not cut out to help with hers. But he fears for her safety, and begs the demon to let her alone and send the troubles and doubts to him.
The last lines are similar to the first except now they're waiting (plural pronoun, we're) for the morning. Although I know Truce came later this makes me think of "The sun will rise and we will try again" and that leads me to believe that they are facing their problems together, to deal with them in the strength of a new day or, to move on because tomorrow is a new day where the sorrows of yesterday are no longer welcome.
Finally. The line "I begin to understand why God died" is repeated several times. We all know Tyler is a Christian, and I am one as well so I will try to explain this from a Christian standpoint. God is three in one. The Father the Son and the Holy Ghost. So technically speaking when he says God he's referring to Jesus' crucifixion. God sent his son to die because he "so loved the world" (John 3:16) and so that would mean that God died for the love of his children. Life and Death are considered equally strong forces by many, and (again I know it comes later) in Ride, additionally, Tyler states "I'd die for you/that's easy to say//I'd live for you/that's harder to do" which indicates that he, at least at some point, finds it hard to stay alive. So staying alive for this person could be equally as difficult for him as dying for us was for Christ. (In the Bible, it describes Jesus as being afraid leading up to the crucifixion, and asking God that if there was any other way the same result could be achieved, to spare him.) So that being said, he could be saying here that he understands why God died because he's experiencing a similar set of circumstances in the reverse sense.
I feel like all of that made more sense in my head I apologise.
So I was doing a ukulele/vocal cover of this song earlier, and so naturally paying more attention to the chords than usual and it hit me what this song might possibly mean, and it caused me to cry enough that it broke my tough as monsters eyeliner into streaking down my cheeks. (I am a guy btw)
I know that Tyler has anxiety issues, as do I. While it's different for everyone and I can only speak for myself, I know that I personally find it difficult to breathe when I have an attack or feel one coming. So I believe that the first line may be a metaphor referring to this difficulty to breathe. The second line builds on this, adding reason to why he would be having an attack. He's getting into the car and starting it for some reason. I assume that whatever the reason is (I am still analyzing this part) that that is what's causing the anxiety.
In general I think that the song has to do with suicide. The self titled album heavily discusses this topic so it's entirely within the realm of the possibility to assume that this is one of those. For example, the phrase "I wanna crack the door so I can just fall out" seems to be alluding to suicide, although I could be wrong. Even though the next line, it seems as though he might be referring to a reason that he will not kill himself; someone has given him their heart and he doesn't want to hurt that person
The song continues until there is the demon brought into the picture, that sneaks into the girls house after Tyler is gone. This could be symbolic of like me, a depressed person, for example, being alright when I'm with someone but once their gone, it's like the shields have quit working and all defences are down.
So the demon stays there for the night and we can probably assume that he's more or less some form of a mental illness like depression or the like.
When Tyler begins his interaction with the demon, "then I felt chills in my bones...Please just send them all my way" assumably,, he is helping the girl, or trying to, with what it is that she is struggling with. He realises though, once he sees and understands his problems that until he faces his own he's not cut out to help with hers. But he fears for her safety, and begs the demon to let her alone and send the troubles and doubts to him.
The last lines are similar to the first except now they're waiting (plural pronoun, we're) for the morning. Although I know Truce came later this makes me think of "The sun will rise and we will try again" and that leads me to believe that they are facing their problems together, to deal with them in the strength of a new day or, to move on because tomorrow is a new day where the sorrows of yesterday are no longer welcome.
Finally. The line "I begin to understand why God died" is repeated several times. We all know Tyler is a Christian, and I am one as well so I will try to explain this from a Christian standpoint. God is three in one. The Father the Son and the Holy Ghost. So technically speaking when he says God he's referring to Jesus' crucifixion. God sent his son to die because he "so loved the world" (John 3:16) and so that would mean that God died for the love of his children. Life and Death are considered equally strong forces by many, and (again I know it comes later) in Ride, additionally, Tyler states "I'd die for you/that's easy to say//I'd live for you/that's harder to do" which indicates that he, at least at some point, finds it hard to stay alive. So staying alive for this person could be equally as difficult for him as dying for us was for Christ. (In the Bible, it describes Jesus as being afraid leading up to the crucifixion, and asking God that if there was any other way the same result could be achieved, to spare him.) So that being said, he could be saying here that he understands why God died because he's experiencing a similar set of circumstances in the reverse sense.
I feel like all of that made more sense in my head I apologise.