I like the several interpretations in the previous posts and some have founds logically… but this refers to the loss experienced by one of the bad members.
It could have relations to drug use and the eventual martyrdom of a drug addict failing to recognize his unwillingness to change. Reference “…try getting water…try getting sleep…” Any drug use would know this could reference to the lack of basic care the problems when focused on drug use. Additionally, this line references the realization after “nodding off” and a “moment of clarity” that the person is self-reflecting on their behavior. But ultimately feels helpless to change and succumbs to the notion I can’t change and don’t want to change. I will in place justify my actions as I am the one who should suffer for my actions. The martyrdom comes from “why shouldn’t this be me (suffering)”. “You don’t want to change, I don’t want to change (my ways)”. This line could reference and support the claim that some emotional issues are beneath that the person can’t overcome “Think back a year
When everything stood at the surface. But bandage you cuts 'cause you don't know what swims underneath…” The further evidence that could lead one to believe this person had deeper lying issues that were unseen that strains the loved ones around them.
However some of this underlying reasoning holds true except for one simple fact, the band members father is dying from cancer. The wife is trying desperately to save him. In the end no one wants to accept what is happening and the son is left with the resentment towards his father and living with words unsaid and relationship unreconciled. This is the most plausible meaning with at least an 85 percent accuracy based on the facts about the writers experience and the support of the lyrics. The band members father is diagnosed with cancer and passes quickly with everyone left holding unfinished business. The wife is trying to help with all she has because losing him means everything. The son feels some quilt about having left things in the way they were and feels he should be suffering instead his mother. Even on his father’s death bed he contemplates his behavior but is unwilling to change and neither is his son (band member). Underlying this is a deep literary piece well thought out trying to capture the process of losing someone with a relationship conflict and the realization after at the end of life how we might have done things different. It also incorporates the stages of grief (Kublar/Ross).
I like the several interpretations in the previous posts and some have founds logically… but this refers to the loss experienced by one of the bad members.
It could have relations to drug use and the eventual martyrdom of a drug addict failing to recognize his unwillingness to change. Reference “…try getting water…try getting sleep…” Any drug use would know this could reference to the lack of basic care the problems when focused on drug use. Additionally, this line references the realization after “nodding off” and a “moment of clarity” that the person is self-reflecting on their behavior. But ultimately feels helpless to change and succumbs to the notion I can’t change and don’t want to change. I will in place justify my actions as I am the one who should suffer for my actions. The martyrdom comes from “why shouldn’t this be me (suffering)”. “You don’t want to change, I don’t want to change (my ways)”. This line could reference and support the claim that some emotional issues are beneath that the person can’t overcome “Think back a year When everything stood at the surface. But bandage you cuts 'cause you don't know what swims underneath…” The further evidence that could lead one to believe this person had deeper lying issues that were unseen that strains the loved ones around them.
However some of this underlying reasoning holds true except for one simple fact, the band members father is dying from cancer. The wife is trying desperately to save him. In the end no one wants to accept what is happening and the son is left with the resentment towards his father and living with words unsaid and relationship unreconciled. This is the most plausible meaning with at least an 85 percent accuracy based on the facts about the writers experience and the support of the lyrics. The band members father is diagnosed with cancer and passes quickly with everyone left holding unfinished business. The wife is trying to help with all she has because losing him means everything. The son feels some quilt about having left things in the way they were and feels he should be suffering instead his mother. Even on his father’s death bed he contemplates his behavior but is unwilling to change and neither is his son (band member). Underlying this is a deep literary piece well thought out trying to capture the process of losing someone with a relationship conflict and the realization after at the end of life how we might have done things different. It also incorporates the stages of grief (Kublar/Ross).