Crawling Back To You

I think this song is 100% about anxiety and depression. From

someone who suffers it and listens to a lot of music this song has connnected with me

in that way that none other has..

If you have a mental illness and suffer from depression or anxiety you know the

feeling of never escaping it, no matter what (I keep crawling back to you).

"Waiting by the side of the road For day to break so we could go Down into Los Angeles With dirty hands and worn out knees"

Its so fucking hard to get up in the morning (thats if you even went to sleep because

you're an insomniac mess) as a person who is severly depressed, you feel worn out,

nothing can make you feel better, its a horrible feeling, i wouldnt wish it apon

anyone else. You feel dirty, because people say to you "cant you just be happy" and

fuck me i wish it was that easy.

"The ranger came with burning eyes The chambermaid awoke surprised Thought she'd seen the last of him She shook her head and let him in"

Everyone with depressiona and anxiety tries to beat it, noone wants to suffer from

this disease, its god awful. But for most of us no matter what we let that fucking

demon back in. Why? Fuck knows. I've felt like I've beat depression quite a few

times, only to fall straight back into that ditch.

"Hey baby, there's something in your eyes Tryin' to say to me That I'm gonna be alright if I believe in you It's all I want to do"

Every partner has tried to "fix" me, said I'm gonna be alright if I console in them,

most of the time they dont understand whats going on my head, how could you? how

could you empathise with someone who wants to die? I dont neccesarily want to kill

myself but more that that I just dont want to keep on living anymore. How??

"It was me and my sidekick He was drunk and I was sick We were caught up in a barroom fight Till an Indian shot out the lights"

My sidekick... Someone who never leaves my side... my fucking mind, my shadow, the

fucking demon that chases me and never leaves me alone, why cant he fuck off and just

let me enjoy myself? We fight eachother day in day out. God fucking dammit I hate my

depression.

"I'm so tired of being tired Sure as night will follow day Most things I worry about Never happen anyway"

This is the fucking kicker. Every time I feel depression crawling back its because

I'm tired of being tired, it's as sure as night follows day.

but of course, I also suffer from anxiety, why am I anxious? I dont fucking know, I

just am, most of the time I'm anxious for somethign that doesnt eventuate. This verse

sold this song on me, caught me and destroyed me. These 4 lines sum up this song and

my mind completely.

Depression... I keep crawling back to you...