The beginning of the song is the singer suffering from a failed suicide attempt (he attempted to kill himself because his love died).
So he's recovering/waking up from the attempt and is just super depressed, so depressed that the world is just black and bleak and the misery is so thick he can hear and feel it.
Next part is him trying to get up, to go on, begging his own depressed brain to go easy on him.
The awful scream he hears, he thinks it's the voice of his dead lover calling out to him to join him. But instead of his love he finds an injured fox. Some pitiful lame half dead creature.
That fox represents the singer, it's him, half dead and barely clinging to life.
When he goes to mercy kill it, what is happening is he's considering attempting to kill himself again. He wants to end his own pain, better dead then this awful suffering.
And so the raising of the stone is him about to kill himself -when he feels something, he feels the eyes of the creature.
The creature is death itself.
The creature lunging at him and the singer running from it is the singer running away from death.
This is the singer deciding that he is not ready to die.
He has decided not to try and kill himself, running away from the creature, from death to "save a life I didn't have"
(the singer is still in this awful depression, he isn't cured, but he's decided he isn't ready for it to be over and he's going to fight)
"Forgot all prayers of joining you" confirms that he is not going to kill himself so that he can join his love in the afterlife.
"I clutched my life
And wished it kept.
My dearest love,
I'm not done yet."
He's holding his life tighter, now he is saying that not only is he NOT going to attempt to kill himself, he "wished it kept," He is saying he wants to live.
For someone with depression there is a big difference between not actively trying to kill your self, and actually wanting to survive.
A lot of depressed people have this desire to just not exist, for their suffering to be over, but it's a different state then being actively suicidal. Wishing his life kept is a really good sign of recovery here.
"Im not done yet" Saying again that the singer is not ready to die, he is saying to his dead love that he is not done yet being alive and he is not ready to die.
"How many years
I know I'll bear."
He's going to try and live out the rest of his natural life because -- "I found something in the woods somewhere."
The beginning of the song is the singer suffering from a failed suicide attempt (he attempted to kill himself because his love died).
So he's recovering/waking up from the attempt and is just super depressed, so depressed that the world is just black and bleak and the misery is so thick he can hear and feel it.
Next part is him trying to get up, to go on, begging his own depressed brain to go easy on him.
The awful scream he hears, he thinks it's the voice of his dead lover calling out to him to join him. But instead of his love he finds an injured fox. Some pitiful lame half dead creature.
That fox represents the singer, it's him, half dead and barely clinging to life.
When he goes to mercy kill it, what is happening is he's considering attempting to kill himself again. He wants to end his own pain, better dead then this awful suffering.
And so the raising of the stone is him about to kill himself -when he feels something, he feels the eyes of the creature.
The creature is death itself.
The creature lunging at him and the singer running from it is the singer running away from death.
This is the singer deciding that he is not ready to die.
He has decided not to try and kill himself, running away from the creature, from death to "save a life I didn't have"
(the singer is still in this awful depression, he isn't cured, but he's decided he isn't ready for it to be over and he's going to fight)
"Forgot all prayers of joining you" confirms that he is not going to kill himself so that he can join his love in the afterlife.
"I clutched my life And wished it kept. My dearest love, I'm not done yet."
He's holding his life tighter, now he is saying that not only is he NOT going to attempt to kill himself, he "wished it kept," He is saying he wants to live.
For someone with depression there is a big difference between not actively trying to kill your self, and actually wanting to survive.
A lot of depressed people have this desire to just not exist, for their suffering to be over, but it's a different state then being actively suicidal. Wishing his life kept is a really good sign of recovery here.
"Im not done yet" Saying again that the singer is not ready to die, he is saying to his dead love that he is not done yet being alive and he is not ready to die.
"How many years I know I'll bear."
He's going to try and live out the rest of his natural life because -- "I found something in the woods somewhere."
What he found in the woods was his will to live.