The song is about a guy who is trying to breakup with his suicidal girlfriend for cheating on him. He tells her he's done, it doesn't matter if she cries or begs. She shouldn't have lied. She looks him in the eye with utter devastation and says she doesn't care if she dies if she loses him. He lost his friends to death somehow, whether it be violence or suicide, and he feels at a loss again. It is assumed she self-harmed whether it led to death or not.
He feels like he's tainted in blood and violence but his heart is pure white, for his innocence he retained. He finds himself getting lost in the sex and the money, with random girls and the bands. He doesn't care for their story, he just wants to forget the pain. He resorts to Xanax, anything to get his mind off it. Even if the sex is mind-blowing for the girl he is with, it isn't enough. He feels lost and disoriented when he is alone.
He feels like he's different. His story and pain makes him unique. He doesn't agree with other artists spitting on his game. He feels his turmoil makes his creativity different from the rest. He is sick of the judgement because he's been through more than most have seen. He holds it in behind these material properties but it'll never heal the tragedy of losing her and his friends.
The song is about a guy who is trying to breakup with his suicidal girlfriend for cheating on him. He tells her he's done, it doesn't matter if she cries or begs. She shouldn't have lied. She looks him in the eye with utter devastation and says she doesn't care if she dies if she loses him. He lost his friends to death somehow, whether it be violence or suicide, and he feels at a loss again. It is assumed she self-harmed whether it led to death or not.
He feels like he's tainted in blood and violence but his heart is pure white, for his innocence he retained. He finds himself getting lost in the sex and the money, with random girls and the bands. He doesn't care for their story, he just wants to forget the pain. He resorts to Xanax, anything to get his mind off it. Even if the sex is mind-blowing for the girl he is with, it isn't enough. He feels lost and disoriented when he is alone.
He feels like he's different. His story and pain makes him unique. He doesn't agree with other artists spitting on his game. He feels his turmoil makes his creativity different from the rest. He is sick of the judgement because he's been through more than most have seen. He holds it in behind these material properties but it'll never heal the tragedy of losing her and his friends.